Ionized
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Hello,
I have had a certain problem for many years now and I would like to know if anyone has similar issues or knows a way for me to better deal with them.
The problem:
I can't watch any sort of movie or TV-Show without having to pause it every few minutes. Let me elaborate on that: When trying to watch a movie or a TV-Show I often get so overwhelmed by thoughts and emotions that I have to pause the movie and do something else while processing my thoughts and calming down a bit before I can continue watching the movie. During those times I usually have to do something entirely different, I get up and walk around my room or I open a new tab to listen to some music while thinking and dreaming. I always have to move in some way, even while listening to music I will excessively stretch, do weird stuff with my hands and what not. Sometimes, I wander around the house only to realize that I don't even know where I am going so I just return to my room, my parents probably think I'm crazy. I already broke many T-Shirts because I kept twisting them in one certain spot up to the point where they eventually had a hole in that particular spot.
Let's just take Star Trek as an example movie, I will be able to watch it for about one or two scenes before having to pause it. As soon as the main theme starts playing while they show the (absolutely amazing) USS Enterprise I pause the whole thing and just dream about what it would be like to actually be part of the movie, to be the captain of a spaceship that travels faster than the speed of light... I then get totally caught up in that dream and have to continue on dreaming for a few minutes, maybe ten but sometimes up to thirty minutes before being able to focus on the movie again. The strangest part: I mostly have to pause during the most exciting scenes, maybe because the tension just gets too much or whatever, I really don't know.
I recently bought a second monitor for my main PC so I usually work around the issue by playing the movie on one monitor while at the same time playing a video game like Fallout 4 on the other monitor. It keeps me distracted and I don't have to pause the movie as often but obviously there are many downsides, it only really works with Movies, TV-Shows and documentaries that I already know where I don't have to see the movie to know what is going on.
All in all this problem might not sound too bad, but just think of how long it takes me to finish just one movie or one episode of a TV-Show. It is also nearly impossible for me to visit any kind of movie theaters because they won't pause the movie every ten minutes so it is really difficult and exhausting for me to sit through the whole thing and I always have to have something to do while watching, mostly Popcorn which is really expensive where I live.
I think that in general I dream a lot more than the average person, I am caught up in my daydreams about 95% of the day and I will sometimes sit in class staring into the void while smiling because something amazing just happened in my dream. Even my heart rate will go up and I breathe faster if something exciting happens in my mind. I am really not bad at school even though I am mentally absent all the time and don't study, I somehow manage to improvise on all my exams and most teachers see me as a hard working and very well behaved student as I am just very quiet and never cause any trouble or distraction but my constant absence does really pull down my participation grades.
Sometimes I lash out at people who distract my daydreams, I always listen to music wherever I go and it has gotten to a point where when I am on the bus and a friend of mine gets on I just get in a really really bad mood because I will have to talk to them and won't be able to use that time for listening to music and daydreaming while looking out the window. If it was people that generally annoy me anyway I would be able to understand my reaction but those people who talk to me are usually ones that I have known for a long time and actually really like which makes it worse.
I am really sorry for the text being so long and extremely thankful for all those who took the time to listen (or rather read) through my story, I appreciate it more than you might think!
I have had a certain problem for many years now and I would like to know if anyone has similar issues or knows a way for me to better deal with them.
The problem:
I can't watch any sort of movie or TV-Show without having to pause it every few minutes. Let me elaborate on that: When trying to watch a movie or a TV-Show I often get so overwhelmed by thoughts and emotions that I have to pause the movie and do something else while processing my thoughts and calming down a bit before I can continue watching the movie. During those times I usually have to do something entirely different, I get up and walk around my room or I open a new tab to listen to some music while thinking and dreaming. I always have to move in some way, even while listening to music I will excessively stretch, do weird stuff with my hands and what not. Sometimes, I wander around the house only to realize that I don't even know where I am going so I just return to my room, my parents probably think I'm crazy. I already broke many T-Shirts because I kept twisting them in one certain spot up to the point where they eventually had a hole in that particular spot.
Let's just take Star Trek as an example movie, I will be able to watch it for about one or two scenes before having to pause it. As soon as the main theme starts playing while they show the (absolutely amazing) USS Enterprise I pause the whole thing and just dream about what it would be like to actually be part of the movie, to be the captain of a spaceship that travels faster than the speed of light... I then get totally caught up in that dream and have to continue on dreaming for a few minutes, maybe ten but sometimes up to thirty minutes before being able to focus on the movie again. The strangest part: I mostly have to pause during the most exciting scenes, maybe because the tension just gets too much or whatever, I really don't know.
I recently bought a second monitor for my main PC so I usually work around the issue by playing the movie on one monitor while at the same time playing a video game like Fallout 4 on the other monitor. It keeps me distracted and I don't have to pause the movie as often but obviously there are many downsides, it only really works with Movies, TV-Shows and documentaries that I already know where I don't have to see the movie to know what is going on.
All in all this problem might not sound too bad, but just think of how long it takes me to finish just one movie or one episode of a TV-Show. It is also nearly impossible for me to visit any kind of movie theaters because they won't pause the movie every ten minutes so it is really difficult and exhausting for me to sit through the whole thing and I always have to have something to do while watching, mostly Popcorn which is really expensive where I live.
I think that in general I dream a lot more than the average person, I am caught up in my daydreams about 95% of the day and I will sometimes sit in class staring into the void while smiling because something amazing just happened in my dream. Even my heart rate will go up and I breathe faster if something exciting happens in my mind. I am really not bad at school even though I am mentally absent all the time and don't study, I somehow manage to improvise on all my exams and most teachers see me as a hard working and very well behaved student as I am just very quiet and never cause any trouble or distraction but my constant absence does really pull down my participation grades.
Sometimes I lash out at people who distract my daydreams, I always listen to music wherever I go and it has gotten to a point where when I am on the bus and a friend of mine gets on I just get in a really really bad mood because I will have to talk to them and won't be able to use that time for listening to music and daydreaming while looking out the window. If it was people that generally annoy me anyway I would be able to understand my reaction but those people who talk to me are usually ones that I have known for a long time and actually really like which makes it worse.
I am really sorry for the text being so long and extremely thankful for all those who took the time to listen (or rather read) through my story, I appreciate it more than you might think!
