rant...

[nowwhat]

Tired of not knowing where I stand with people. Tired of being misinterpreted. Tired of being written off. Tired of not "feeling" the goodness and friendship people are trying to send my way (at least I think, or are they messing with me?), cause it's encoded in a language I can't speak or understand. Tired of feeling alone all the time. Tired of trying yet again to fit in and creating yet another embarrassing awkward trainwreck for myself and others. Tired of being judged stupid, when I'm really only socially stupid. Tired of being the butt of jokes. Tired of people distrusting me or being afraid of me cause I'm different (so I must be a psycho, right?) Tired of feeling like damaged goods. Tired of feeling like I've never grown up. I'm too old to fake it and kiss arse to avoid conflicts. I'm nearly 50, and therefore hold out no hope of improvement or ideas to improve things. I know better by now. I've tried everything. What will become of me? I don't want another 40 years of this. Really, I don't.

 

[Turnip]

I wish I knew something to say to help. I'm sorry

 

[nowwhat]

Eh was a rant. Sometimes, you gotta. Thanks tho.

 

[Judge]

Good subject. I'm at a crossroads of whether or not to mention or outright imply my neurological status in course of regular conversations. Not sure if it would do any good in circumstances revolving around people who don't know me.

Though if anything I'm probably more tempted to let people know I don't process sarcasm all that well...strangers always seem to think I can like everyone else....when I can't.

 

[nowwhat]

Good subject. I'm at a crossroads of whether or not to mention or outright imply my neurological status in course of regular conversations. Not sure if it would do any good in circumstances revolving around people who don't know me..

There's so obviously "something up" with me that if I think it will help matters, I mention it. Some people are ignorant, prejudiced, or just plain stupid, so would be a bad idea to mention it.

 

[Judge]

There's so obviously "something up" with me that if I think it will help matters, I mention it. Some people are ignorant, prejudiced, or just plain stupid, so would be a bad idea to mention it.

Could well be. That's another perplexing aspect of it all. The spectrum itself, and how some of us "stand out" more than others.

In my case it's probably not immediately obvious at all. The one person closest to me I told has not been very sympathetic at all. She thinks I'm making too big a deal about it, that everyone has some kind of autistic trait. Maybe had my traits been more obvious she might have had a different uptake. I don't really know....

 

[Turk]

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Tired of not knowing where I stand with people. Tired of being misinterpreted. Tired of being written off. Tired of not "feeling" the goodness and friendship people are trying to send my way (at least I think, or are they messing with me?), cause it's encoded in a language I can't speak or understand. Tired of feeling alone all the time. Tired of trying yet again to fit in and creating yet another embarrassing awkward trainwreck for myself and others. Tired of being judged stupid, when I'm really only socially stupid. Tired of being the butt of jokes. Tired of people distrusting me or being afraid of me cause I'm different (so I must be a psycho, right?) Tired of feeling like damaged goods. Tired of feeling like I've never grown up. I'm too old to fake it and kiss arse to avoid conflicts. I'm nearly 50, and therefore hold out no hope of improvement or ideas to improve things. I know better by now. I've tried everything. What will become of me? I don't want another 40 years of this. Really, I don't.

Unfortunately it is our cross to bear, but im hearing ya. Being what we are, isolates us and shines a spotlight on us. I take solace in the fact that some of those people, that would judge me, are kidding themselves if they see themselves as representative of the normal world. Im loyal, speak the truth, and am accountable and make no excuses for what I am. If at the end of the day people ,find issue with me, in light of my admirable qualities, then those hypocrites have no place in my life. Those that find me abrupt or rude make no exceptions for my differences, which is why I make no effort to hide, what I am from them. I really hear you on this Nowwhat and there's not a lot I can say to make you feel better. Despite your condition, youve still managed to raise a family. Be proud of what you are and forgive yourself for what your not. My conversations with you have shown to you to be a worldly kind of guy with a kick ass sense of humour and an IQ to match. Its no wonder the NT world finds you intimidating. Lol

 

[nowwhat]

:Im loyal, speak the truth, and am accountable and make no excuses for what I am.l

I, too am flush with these denominations, but this quoin (nod to Neal Stephenson, here: read the Baroque Cycle) spends like monopoly money in the NT world where we are unlucky enough to be the minority.

 

[Turk]

I, too am flush with these denominations, but this quoin (nod to Neal Stephenson, here: read the Baroque Cycle) spends like monopoly money in the NT world where we are unlucky enough to be the minority.

A minority we may be, but when theyre in my world and need my help, and ive bought Mayfair and its got 5 hotels on it, they will be paying a premium

 

[Streetwise]

all of the above and IM not going to research for certain people they obviously have no appreciation and I'll be happy when they are irritated

Tired of not knowing where I stand with people. Tired of being misinterpreted. Tired of being written off. Tired of not "feeling" the goodness and friendship people are trying to send my way (at least I think, or are they messing with me?), cause it's encoded in a language I can't speak or understand. Tired of feeling alone all the time. Tired of trying yet again to fit in and creating yet another embarrassing awkward trainwreck for myself and others. Tired of being judged stupid, when I'm really only socially stupid. Tired of being the butt of jokes. Tired of people distrusting me or being afraid of me cause I'm different (so I must be a psycho, right?) Tired of feeling like damaged goods. Tired of feeling like I've never grown up. I'm too old to fake it and kiss arse to avoid conflicts. I'm nearly 50, and therefore hold out no hope of improvement or ideas to improve things. I know better by now. I've tried everything. What will become of me? I don't want another 40 years of this. Really, I don't.