All this time I been blaming my friends, family, old past church, and even current and other church I am visiting but all this time the root of my anger came from going to the cafe all the time.
All the churches I visited yes every one I was welcomed with open arms. I was smiled at yes by women. I could approach them and not get my head torn off.
Then you know the Justin and then Madison drama that made me leave my first church. Patricia was understanding to bring me too Roots but right away it felt just like college and trade school when I said hi to a women next to me at when I got a drink the first day distraught and she gave me that resting face the mean one then sat alone snubbing me and won't even look at me. I felt way worse that I had to stim on three stooges shirts for at least an hour and got frustrated when I could not find three of my favorites on YouTube.
The next day game night was great where I felt welcomed since I only been to Roots on day.
As I joined the new church not realizing going to Roots everyday being ignored by women mostly getting mean stares yes but rarely getting smiles made me start to fear even approaching them even at my new church. It started to make me antisocial. Then hearing them talk about traveling gave me travel envy which fueled into both churches and haven't more rage since they ostracized me anywhere at the cafe.
I ended up getting more bitter more angry until you see the way I am now blaming everyone and everything as you can see the root of my anger all started at Roots the cafe. I think my best bet is to stop going there except for game night of course and just try to do something else in the afternoon you could stay home or just walk around my local neighborhood or just I don't know I don't know what to do that's it but other activities really start in the evening in the fall and I guess I would have to just stay home in the afternoon but I'm afraid of getting weight by not walking but I'll just have to ask other people what I can do that's it.
All the churches I visited yes every one I was welcomed with open arms. I was smiled at yes by women. I could approach them and not get my head torn off.
Then you know the Justin and then Madison drama that made me leave my first church. Patricia was understanding to bring me too Roots but right away it felt just like college and trade school when I said hi to a women next to me at when I got a drink the first day distraught and she gave me that resting face the mean one then sat alone snubbing me and won't even look at me. I felt way worse that I had to stim on three stooges shirts for at least an hour and got frustrated when I could not find three of my favorites on YouTube.
The next day game night was great where I felt welcomed since I only been to Roots on day.
As I joined the new church not realizing going to Roots everyday being ignored by women mostly getting mean stares yes but rarely getting smiles made me start to fear even approaching them even at my new church. It started to make me antisocial. Then hearing them talk about traveling gave me travel envy which fueled into both churches and haven't more rage since they ostracized me anywhere at the cafe.
I ended up getting more bitter more angry until you see the way I am now blaming everyone and everything as you can see the root of my anger all started at Roots the cafe. I think my best bet is to stop going there except for game night of course and just try to do something else in the afternoon you could stay home or just walk around my local neighborhood or just I don't know I don't know what to do that's it but other activities really start in the evening in the fall and I guess I would have to just stay home in the afternoon but I'm afraid of getting weight by not walking but I'll just have to ask other people what I can do that's it.
