Self diagnosed married to non Aspie.

[Butterflysunny]

Hello. I am 37. I have three daughters, ages 12, 5, and 20 months. I am on marriage #2. I have an appointment for official diagnosis testing.
I'm at a point in life where I am just tired of trying to make sense out of what is nonsensical to me. I'm constantly arguing with my husband. I feel as tho I need to not be in a relationship at all because me trying to understand someone else or have someone else understand me on that level is useless and will never happen.
I'm feeling hopeless.
The only good thing I seem to have mastered is motherhood, that gets me through each day, my daughter adores me as much as I adore her. Its uncomplicated with her.
Thank you for letting me share.

 

[Rocco]

Welcome aboard

 

[Tom]

... where I am just tired of trying to make sense out of what is nonsensical to me...

Its hardest to fix a car, while your driving it. Something I used when things were most contentious was setting up a sort of truce, to suspend all hostility and to then do a investigation with my spouse to look back and determine what went wrong. Then you can try and figure out improvements where feasible or acceptance where its not.