granolaturtle
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It's like, so wonderful, mainly because I found a wonderful person. :3 It's a bit complicated to explain, because I kind of just describe myself as butch (sometimes I use "lesbian" for convenience and because the word is empowering to take back from porn for me), and he's a genderfluid trans man, so people don't automatically get it. But we make it work, and it's fun because we get to use all gendered compliments for each other. I can call him handsome in one breath and beautiful in the next.
We're long distance but we've seen each other several times now, and I plan on seeing him again soon. He's disabled, in that he technically "can" walk, but would pass out if he did it for any longer than like, five minutes, and at that he has to use a cane. So we're both dependent on our parents for now, which is embarrassing, but at least we both can understand that kind of situation.
He also does lolita which is super cool and the outfits are awesome. I'm not as comfortable going about in dresses as he is, but it makes me happy that he is so confident that it doesn't even bother him.
Anyways, I guess I've been frustrated with my repeated attempts to get a drivers license. Twice, I've failed twice now. And it'll be very hard to see him, get a job, and be able to see him even more if I don't have that license. Luckily for me, my mom's willing to drive me there, but she won't let me stay the night at his home (I'm 18, btw, so it's not entirely unreasonable for me to ask). Because I have no other options, I don't feel confident in arguing with her about that or asking for more freedom in that regard, because I'm terrified I'll lose whatever I manage to get.
I'm trying so hard to get that license, but if I fail again I won't be able to take the test in the same place, and I've been deliberately going somewhere the test is easier. I can't even manage to pass the easy test. That's how pathetic I am.
I guess sometimes I don't get what he sees in me, but then its like, wow, he's super into me and this is cool. I like someone and they like me back and we trust each other, and I don't feel like he's going to trick me or make fun of me or put me down. A large part of this is probably those new love hormones and stuff, but he's so patient.
It's like neither of us have that much of an ego when it comes to relationships, romance or sex, and I think that'll help a lot. I've explained that I can misunderstand things easily, and that's the reason I waited til the third date to kiss him, because I wasn't sure if he wanted me to or not. (I think I even pulled away a few times when he was about to, because I didn't want to be presumptuous). Since then, we've been very clear with each other about what we want or need. And it makes me feel so safe.
Even if we were to break up tomorrow, I wouldn't regret meeting and being with him. And what better thing can you say about about a relationship than that?
We're long distance but we've seen each other several times now, and I plan on seeing him again soon. He's disabled, in that he technically "can" walk, but would pass out if he did it for any longer than like, five minutes, and at that he has to use a cane. So we're both dependent on our parents for now, which is embarrassing, but at least we both can understand that kind of situation.
He also does lolita which is super cool and the outfits are awesome. I'm not as comfortable going about in dresses as he is, but it makes me happy that he is so confident that it doesn't even bother him.
Anyways, I guess I've been frustrated with my repeated attempts to get a drivers license. Twice, I've failed twice now. And it'll be very hard to see him, get a job, and be able to see him even more if I don't have that license. Luckily for me, my mom's willing to drive me there, but she won't let me stay the night at his home (I'm 18, btw, so it's not entirely unreasonable for me to ask). Because I have no other options, I don't feel confident in arguing with her about that or asking for more freedom in that regard, because I'm terrified I'll lose whatever I manage to get.
I'm trying so hard to get that license, but if I fail again I won't be able to take the test in the same place, and I've been deliberately going somewhere the test is easier. I can't even manage to pass the easy test. That's how pathetic I am.
I guess sometimes I don't get what he sees in me, but then its like, wow, he's super into me and this is cool. I like someone and they like me back and we trust each other, and I don't feel like he's going to trick me or make fun of me or put me down. A large part of this is probably those new love hormones and stuff, but he's so patient.
It's like neither of us have that much of an ego when it comes to relationships, romance or sex, and I think that'll help a lot. I've explained that I can misunderstand things easily, and that's the reason I waited til the third date to kiss him, because I wasn't sure if he wanted me to or not. (I think I even pulled away a few times when he was about to, because I didn't want to be presumptuous). Since then, we've been very clear with each other about what we want or need. And it makes me feel so safe.
Even if we were to break up tomorrow, I wouldn't regret meeting and being with him. And what better thing can you say about about a relationship than that?
) I had studied beforehand but that "cramming" right before the test paid off! I passed not problem. If you thought that would help you, try it! Don't get frustrated, stay calm, and remember that you are smarter than some stupid test!
) and 3-point turns, etc. until you feel more comfortable. Then when you take your test, you will have more confidence and maybe pass easier. I don't know if any of this advice will help you, but "good luck and may angels guide thee on your way!"
