It's been a difficult couple of week. I don't if I still have true friends or not. I am tired of seeing them blessed with new children. Two couples are expecting and boasting about it. Meanwhile two already had babies and I feel more rotten I am still single attending for four and half years of socializing. Doing so much, even losing weight seems like nothing has changed.
This is why I been in a rotten mood. Also hearing from the same people telling me I am not ready and a relationship won't help does not help either. I just want to be that more content person I was a month ago at least but when I go out and see couples with their kids, men and women holding hands. A woman that looks like she is by herself until her man comes makes me feel more rotten and wishes I didn't get out if bed.
I am still getting out if bed even though I been skipping yoga some mornings as it's most mornings just old people who attended. I been only going to the gym once a week. I also feel like I am gaining weight again.
This is why I been in a rotten mood. Also hearing from the same people telling me I am not ready and a relationship won't help does not help either. I just want to be that more content person I was a month ago at least but when I go out and see couples with their kids, men and women holding hands. A woman that looks like she is by herself until her man comes makes me feel more rotten and wishes I didn't get out if bed.
I am still getting out if bed even though I been skipping yoga some mornings as it's most mornings just old people who attended. I been only going to the gym once a week. I also feel like I am gaining weight again.