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Amie Martin wants to help other autistics.
Autistic Amie Martin, aged 20, of Rodney Street, Sandfields, Swansea, wants to help others. In her own words, she outlines her dreams, and how online blogging has helped her be herself.
MY name is Amie Martin and I have autism. It's a thing that controls my brain and the way I am.
I can't communicate with people I don't know very well and I act childishly. It feels like I am a 20-year-old woman with a brain that is a lot younger.
Sometimes I forget how old I am because I don't feel my age. I am always in my own little world. I look around and think why can't everyone else see what I see?
People look at me and stare and walk into me as if I'm invisible. Why can't people understand me? I don't look autistic, yet people still stare. Why?
I am addicted to music. It plays in my head over and over – the same song for two years! In my head a voice says to repeat the song, even when I don't want to. It's a pain but I can deal with it. I grew up getting angry at things, always feeling frustrated and screaming, throwing my stuff, kicking things and slamming doors. At age 18 I managed to control it and stop because I was hurting myself and getting angry over the silliest things.
I never could keep friends. They all walked away from me. I did make one friend in 2009 called Ali. I met her through my mum. I seem to only trust some people. I will have that person in my head, like in a trust circle knowing they won't ever walk away.
Ali understood me and helped me through my past, and made me feel special and that being me wasn't such a bad thing after all.
Friends never seem to stay or keep promises but at least I have one special friend who won't be going anywhere.
Bullying was the worst thing to make me feel ugly. I always got bullied in school and in college. It was horrible. I just felt like all sorts of emotions at once. It was scary. I wanted to just stay in a corner and think why are people treating me like this? Do I really deserve to be hated? It was by the same girl all the way through from school to college and for some reason she thought it was okay, or what she was doing was great. I didn't want to be seen. I just wanted to stay in my room and do nothing because it was stressing me out so much.
I got even more shy from bullying and I decided to make YouTube videos to open up, to talk to people around the world to help others with special needs. It's called "Amie's bubble of difficulties" a name that described me all the way!
I found it easier to speak to a camera about my autism and to express my feelings to everyone without feeling shy. I decided to blog with my family and be myself. I seem to be obsessed with memories. I want to say to everyone out there that has autism to be strong and be yourself. Don't worry about haters, there will be haters even if we were perfect. But, there is no such thing as being perfect – nobody is perfect. Being autistic is fine and we all need to smile and be ourselves. Don't change because everyone else wants us to change. I also have attention deficit disorder which only affects my spelling and my learning difficulties, but doesn't affect anything else.
Autism is a big part of my life. I don't want to be treated differently, I just want to be treated the same as everyone else, but fairly.
I want to show everyone it's OK to be different and stick to the people who love you. My mum has always told me do what makes me happy and do what's right in life. Don't do anything you'll regret. Stay on the good pages, but be yourself. I want to be able to look in the mirror and love myself and be strong and not hate myself. My dream is to help others like me and to make people feel happier, like I am now. Listen to the people who love and support you and not the people who hate you. I have big dreams like everyone else. I don't want to be a doctor or a teacher I want to be a girl who makes videos on YouTube and opens up to the world. I want to grow old and say I did that!!
I am the girl who is big on living life and just smiling. I don't want to be doing a job and hating it. I want to do something that I am going to be successful at and today is the day. By writing this about my difficulties I hope this is the start of dream, writing my feelings and videoing my life.
My facebook page is called: Amie's bubble of difficulties. My YouTube channel for bogging is: Amie Martin
SOURCE: Swansea autism sufferer Amie Martin talks about how online blogging helped her be herself | South Wales Evening Post
Amie Martin wants to help other autistics.
Autistic Amie Martin, aged 20, of Rodney Street, Sandfields, Swansea, wants to help others. In her own words, she outlines her dreams, and how online blogging has helped her be herself.
MY name is Amie Martin and I have autism. It's a thing that controls my brain and the way I am.
I can't communicate with people I don't know very well and I act childishly. It feels like I am a 20-year-old woman with a brain that is a lot younger.
Sometimes I forget how old I am because I don't feel my age. I am always in my own little world. I look around and think why can't everyone else see what I see?
People look at me and stare and walk into me as if I'm invisible. Why can't people understand me? I don't look autistic, yet people still stare. Why?
I am addicted to music. It plays in my head over and over – the same song for two years! In my head a voice says to repeat the song, even when I don't want to. It's a pain but I can deal with it. I grew up getting angry at things, always feeling frustrated and screaming, throwing my stuff, kicking things and slamming doors. At age 18 I managed to control it and stop because I was hurting myself and getting angry over the silliest things.
I never could keep friends. They all walked away from me. I did make one friend in 2009 called Ali. I met her through my mum. I seem to only trust some people. I will have that person in my head, like in a trust circle knowing they won't ever walk away.
Ali understood me and helped me through my past, and made me feel special and that being me wasn't such a bad thing after all.
Friends never seem to stay or keep promises but at least I have one special friend who won't be going anywhere.
Bullying was the worst thing to make me feel ugly. I always got bullied in school and in college. It was horrible. I just felt like all sorts of emotions at once. It was scary. I wanted to just stay in a corner and think why are people treating me like this? Do I really deserve to be hated? It was by the same girl all the way through from school to college and for some reason she thought it was okay, or what she was doing was great. I didn't want to be seen. I just wanted to stay in my room and do nothing because it was stressing me out so much.
I got even more shy from bullying and I decided to make YouTube videos to open up, to talk to people around the world to help others with special needs. It's called "Amie's bubble of difficulties" a name that described me all the way!
I found it easier to speak to a camera about my autism and to express my feelings to everyone without feeling shy. I decided to blog with my family and be myself. I seem to be obsessed with memories. I want to say to everyone out there that has autism to be strong and be yourself. Don't worry about haters, there will be haters even if we were perfect. But, there is no such thing as being perfect – nobody is perfect. Being autistic is fine and we all need to smile and be ourselves. Don't change because everyone else wants us to change. I also have attention deficit disorder which only affects my spelling and my learning difficulties, but doesn't affect anything else.
Autism is a big part of my life. I don't want to be treated differently, I just want to be treated the same as everyone else, but fairly.
I want to show everyone it's OK to be different and stick to the people who love you. My mum has always told me do what makes me happy and do what's right in life. Don't do anything you'll regret. Stay on the good pages, but be yourself. I want to be able to look in the mirror and love myself and be strong and not hate myself. My dream is to help others like me and to make people feel happier, like I am now. Listen to the people who love and support you and not the people who hate you. I have big dreams like everyone else. I don't want to be a doctor or a teacher I want to be a girl who makes videos on YouTube and opens up to the world. I want to grow old and say I did that!!
I am the girl who is big on living life and just smiling. I don't want to be doing a job and hating it. I want to do something that I am going to be successful at and today is the day. By writing this about my difficulties I hope this is the start of dream, writing my feelings and videoing my life.
My facebook page is called: Amie's bubble of difficulties. My YouTube channel for bogging is: Amie Martin
SOURCE: Swansea autism sufferer Amie Martin talks about how online blogging helped her be herself | South Wales Evening Post
