The Fear Of Losing It

[KevinMao133]

You would think after accomplishing so much, that I will be more calm and poised. Not really. I feel good while doing things but that’s it.

I’m constantly on edge, constantly afraid of something. I’m afraid of losing it, I’m afraid that everything will snap in an instant

Having being through what I being through, I never want to go back to the past again. Matter of fact, I promised myself two years ago that if I ever get a chance, I will not lose it ever again. I will make sure things go according to plan by controlling every aspect

Anyways, do you guys fear losing everything you got? Does this relate to autism or is there more of an OCD thing

I struggle with anxiety on a consistent basis. There are times I feel good but then it goes away

 

[TBRS1]

Spent the majority of my life one insecure paycheck from unreliable masters away from homelessness, so yeah.

I have.

Dunno if it's related to autism, though. Most everybody I know (autistic and allistic) lives like that.

 

[Endymion]

I'm sorry you're feeling so much anxiety. Although everyone's experience of autism is different (I've been told), I certainly don't feel the kind of anxiety you do, so yours may not be directly related to your condition. I'm learning, though, that autism can lead to precarious employment (and other) situations, so autism may be an indirect cause of how you're feeling. A need to "control every aspect" seems understandable but just may not be possible. Is there a professional you can speak to?

 

[Xinyta]

You would think after accomplishing so much, that I will be more calm and poised. Not really. I feel good while doing things but that’s it.

I’m constantly on edge, constantly afraid of something. I’m afraid of losing it, I’m afraid that everything will snap in an instant

Having being through what I being through, I never want to go back to the past again. Matter of fact, I promised myself two years ago that if I ever get a chance, I will not lose it ever again. I will make sure things go according to plan by controlling every aspect

Anyways, do you guys fear losing everything you got? Does this relate to autism or is there more of an OCD thing

I struggle with anxiety on a consistent basis. There are times I feel good but then it goes away

Do you journal?

Whether you do or not. It would be good to get all your thoughts down on paper, both positive and negative. Sometimes it's good to dig deep and journal your exact feelings about inner turmoils. Getting it all out on paper and reading it over, is the best way I've found, to outlet bottled emotions.

Though if you can find a different method. That's all the better.

But what your said does resonate with me. I have struggles with looking at the accomplishments I've done, myself. But I am finding that it's a struggle to see them, or my bad habits, is because of my own issues I refuse to let go of. That I am hiding from them. Acting like everything is okay, when it's not.

 

[HOFJanitor]

You would think after accomplishing so much, that I will be more calm and poised. Not really. I feel good while doing things but that’s it.

I’m constantly on edge, constantly afraid of something. I’m afraid of losing it, I’m afraid that everything will snap in an instant

Having being through what I being through, I never want to go back to the past again. Matter of fact, I promised myself two years ago that if I ever get a chance, I will not lose it ever again. I will make sure things go according to plan by controlling every aspect

Anyways, do you guys fear losing everything you got? Does this relate to autism or is there more of an OCD thing

I struggle with anxiety on a consistent basis. There are times I feel good but then it goes away

Hi there. I used to struggle with general anxiety in my younger days. I'm 35 now and as I've aged I've come to realize that it just isn't worth worrying. I've found great strength in spirituality and believe in a higher power. It really does help me to keep things in perspective.

 

[FilterFreq]

Anxiety is weird. The more you wrestle with it, the more it fights back.

I'm no master of eliminating anxiety, but I've learned that if your stress levels are low enough (that's a big if), there's a way to stop borrowing trouble from the idle anxiety that worries in the background about your wellbeing, or even the idle depression that some people experience when nothing exciting is going on*.

* = Or, I should say, to acknowledge it and move on while realizing it's just part of life

With that said, serious stressors and traumas indeed interfere with both. But, the flip side of worrying about 'losing it' is to realize that you've actually got something to lose, which can be a position of power as well.

 

[plushy]

May I ask, what medication(s) do you take?

You might just need an adjustment.

 

[Starflowerpower87]

I sort of have this same problem. Not sure what would shut it off. Therapy might help. Try to find someone to talk to. It's best to hold on through hard times. For the days when things are better. It can't rain all the time.

 

[KevinMao133]

May I ask, what medication(s) do you take?

You might just need an adjustment.

I wish I’m on meds

I used to be on CBDs. Nowadays I’m on nothing since CBD is banned, where I live

I miss the capsules, edibles already

 

[Chimorin]

You would think after accomplishing so much, that I will be more calm and poised. Not really. I feel good while doing things but that’s it.

I’m constantly on edge, constantly afraid of something. I’m afraid of losing it, I’m afraid that everything will snap in an instant

Having being through what I being through, I never want to go back to the past again. Matter of fact, I promised myself two years ago that if I ever get a chance, I will not lose it ever again. I will make sure things go according to plan by controlling every aspect

Anyways, do you guys fear losing everything you got? Does this relate to autism or is there more of an OCD thing

I struggle with anxiety on a consistent basis. There are times I feel good but then it goes away

I feel you a lot on this, just a constant state of paranoia, always on edge and ready to defend yourself against threats which don’t even exist outside of your head if you understand what I’m trying to say.

In my case though, sadly some of the things I did fear losing actually did happen, but if I’m honest, it’s one less thing to worry about, and also helped me let go of other things.

I suppose it’s about trying to create your own reality which helps me I guess you could say, create a world for me to live in knowing it won’t be changed or interfered with. However, trying to control literally every aspect and narrative of it just resulting in me imploding, especially when my reality got shattered. I want to try to create one again but on a much smaller scale, only consisting of me in a set environment. It’s really hard to describe but I think you know where I’m coming from.