The void in the suit of me myself and I

[ilovebeingtheworst★]

Hello there,

my name is Eva. I don't know how to react to finding this forum (my friend gave me the link). Should I be happy? But I feel kinda weird and exhausted, because I've never seen a space like this. I always wanted the world to be a comfortable place, and here we are. What do we do now?

I have no friends in real life and I'm always sitting at home. I have some symptoms of ADHD and most of the time I feel confused about life, guilty and afraid to live. I like horror movies and anime, philosophy, gothic, alternative and experimental music, abstract rap and poetry, dark computer games and books. I like to sing and dance when I'm alone. I often cry and upset myself over things I can't describe. I hope I find something good here…

 

[Mr. Stevens]

You will probably fit in. Many people here share those interests.

I have friends in real life, and I'm usually sitting at home

 

[tree]

 

[Richelle-H]

Welcome Eva.

This is as accepting and comforting a place as you are ever likely to find. There is no need to feel obligated or stressed here, but if you take the time to explore you just may find you fit in better than you might imagine.

 

[Human Avatar]

Hello

 

[Outdated]

Hi Eva, and welcome. It's a friendly place here where we can all talk about things without feeling weird, and by learning about each other we learn about ourselves.

 

[VictorR]

Welcome! Feel free to join in any of the discussions or to start your own, or just to lurk around - that's fine as well!

 

[Rodafina]

Hello and welcome.

don't know how to react to finding this forum (my friend gave me the link). Should I be happy?

Be whatever you want! “Should” doesn’t usually help much. Maybe curious? Perhaps anxious? A mish-mash of a hundred different things?

But I feel kinda weird and exhausted, because I've never seen a space like this.

Weird and exhausted are my state 90% of the time, so you are in understanding company here.

 

[ilovebeingtheworst★]

Thank you

 

[heyitsalice]

Hello there,

my name is Eva. I don't know how to react to finding this forum (my friend gave me the link). Should I be happy? But I feel kinda weird and exhausted, because I've never seen a space like this. I always wanted the world to be a comfortable place, and here we are. What do we do now?

I have no friends in real life and I'm always sitting at home. I have some symptoms of ADHD and most of the time I feel confused about life, guilty and afraid to live. I like horror movies and anime, philosophy, gothic, alternative and experimental music, abstract rap and poetry, dark computer games and books. I like to sing and dance when I'm alone. I often cry and upset myself over things I can't describe. I hope I find something good here…

Hi Eva! I am Alice nice to meet you. I am New around here too and I have mixed feelings about it.
I get what you are feeling and because of this I know it hurts a lot. I really hope you can find friends and people with the same interests as you here. I am always here if you need a friend to have those dark phylosophical conversations! I am a bit of a chicken so I don't watch too much horror movies (currently waiting for Scream 6) but I would love for you to recommend me some! And i LOVE books! Are you reading any right now? Anyways I hope you feel welcomed here ❤

 

[spitz]

hi hi i hope u enjoy ur time here or at least find some comfort ❤❤ i relate to ur experience a lot! u have a lot of cool interests id be super into discussing with u if u ever feel (adore transgressive/ dark media and experimental music)- say hi! whats ur fave music artists?

 

[ilovebeingtheworst★]

Hi Eva! I am Alice nice to meet you. I am New around here too and I have mixed feelings about it.
I get what you are feeling and because of this I know it hurts a lot. I really hope you can find friends and people with the same interests as you here. I am always here if you need a friend to have those dark phylosophical conversations! I am a bit of a chicken so I don't watch too much horror movies (currently waiting for Scream 6) but I would love for you to recommend me some! And i LOVE books! Are you reading any right now? Anyways I hope you feel welcomed here ❤

Hi Alice, thank you.
I would recommend The Evil Dead, all parts. But it might be too gross for you if you don't like the sight of blood. Maybe you like creepy cartoons like something of Tim Burton?

The last thing I read was three books by Toni Morrison: The Bluest Eye, Beloved and Love. I only liked the first book, I found the second book terribly draining and thought I wouldn't want to be a mother and experience all those feelings. The third book has an unexpected ending, but the atmosphere of the characters' lives is very far from what interests me. I also recommend the movie Gone Girl if you've ever had an abusive relationship. It’s a tragic and satisfying story of female rage. Have you played Alice Madness Returns? What do you read now?

 

[ilovebeingtheworst★]

hi hi i hope u enjoy ur time here or at least find some comfort ❤❤ i relate to ur experience a lot! u have a lot of cool interests id be super into discussing with u if u ever feel (adore transgressive/ dark media and experimental music)- say hi! whats ur fave music artists?

Hi
I like your avatar. Have you watched Higurashi no Naku Koro ni? Im in love with Rika and she’s kinda looks like Stocking. Im obsessed with HNK opening for ps3 since yesterday.

It’s my favourite asian noise band

This is what I’m listening right now

 

[spitz]

omg im so sorry for the late & extremely long reply!

I like your avatar. Have you watched Higurashi no Naku Koro ni? Im in love with Rika and she’s kinda looks like Stocking. Im obsessed with HNK opening for ps3 since yesterday.

Thank you!!! love urs 2 <3 cool 2 see another p&s fan on here hehe! & no i havent! but this looks like a good watch, since u rec it i'll check it out this week!

It’s my favourite asian noise band

OMG yes i know this group! tbh i'd been non intentionally putting off getting into their stuff for a while from being distracted by other music,, i've always found them interesting so i promise i'll give them a proper go soon.
ooohhh i havent heard the rest you linked, different style than what im used to, they r nice! especially adore the darker ambient section near the end of the second track & the atmosphere of the 3rd, i'll save these so i dont forget ab them, ty! my fave japanese noise band is probably boredoms LOL hanatarash also rule, i love yamataka eye's work in general

(wanted 2 just send you like.. the first song but i cant find a solo upload of it rn >_>.. )
also les rallizes denudes is an obligatory pick but a good mention if you havent yet checked out their stuff u probably (would?) like them. on my mind as ive been binging them recently after their music has finally been re-released as of later in 2022, 77' live is so so beautiful!

since ur into some similar stuff as me, thought it would be fun 2 also share a couple of what ive been listening to recently! hope thats alright!

theres of course so much more i adore and want 2 share with you but i have to stop myself or else this would be waay too long LOL.. hope u find something you like in those!
also read through ur reply about books to heyitsalice and im gonna note these down as they sound super interesting, ty!

this is an extremely long reply so dont feel pressured to reply back or anything, just glad u joined as it was nice meeting u! always up for a chat about any of this ^_^! hope u have a good day ❤!!

 

[foliodoe]

Welcome!