Hey guys, so I just had the most frustrating day!
My psychologist (who first suggested AS) referred me to her co-worker who is a disability specialist and today I had my first appointment with her. It was an initial assessment based on what psych # 1 had told her so basically she asked me a lot of questions related to asperger's and inattentive adhd.
What I find so difficult is being able to answer yes/no or scaled questions. For example, I am fairly good at "passing" as NT if I put my mind to it. How do I do this? It comes from 20 years of obsessively studying other peoples' behaviour, imitating this, and forming useful scripts. This is fine for a superficial encounter but if I try to keep this up I will get exhausted and incredibly anxious... and probably end up doing or saying something that isn't NT enough (blowing my cover). It also means I have barely any mental resources left to actually think about stuff. I "half-pass" (haha new word!) with my closer friends and I have one friend I can be totally myself around.
So how do I answer the question, "on a scale of 1 to 5, rate your difficulty in socializing or establishing relationships"???? Show me what 1 feels like compared to 2. arghhjhhhhfhhjfg!!!! I guess I just wish I could explain myself better in these sorts of situations.
Anyone had similar experiences?
My psychologist (who first suggested AS) referred me to her co-worker who is a disability specialist and today I had my first appointment with her. It was an initial assessment based on what psych # 1 had told her so basically she asked me a lot of questions related to asperger's and inattentive adhd.
What I find so difficult is being able to answer yes/no or scaled questions. For example, I am fairly good at "passing" as NT if I put my mind to it. How do I do this? It comes from 20 years of obsessively studying other peoples' behaviour, imitating this, and forming useful scripts. This is fine for a superficial encounter but if I try to keep this up I will get exhausted and incredibly anxious... and probably end up doing or saying something that isn't NT enough (blowing my cover). It also means I have barely any mental resources left to actually think about stuff. I "half-pass" (haha new word!) with my closer friends and I have one friend I can be totally myself around.
So how do I answer the question, "on a scale of 1 to 5, rate your difficulty in socializing or establishing relationships"???? Show me what 1 feels like compared to 2. arghhjhhhhfhhjfg!!!! I guess I just wish I could explain myself better in these sorts of situations.
Anyone had similar experiences?