Anyone have had experiences in the past were something would cause a meltdown or something similar, but you just couldn't put your finger on it?
And was this before or after you might have your official diagnosis?
Or putting it differently, are there things you tried once, and if you did those out of sheer curiosity, it felt a lot less distressing?
For instance, I shave most of my body hair because it itches the heck out of me (and no, I don't think that does have to do with poor hygiene). But at some point I decided "i'll shave it off" and then I figured "this feels good". Much better than if before. The same applies for me living mostly during night and sleeping during day. Little did I know that I subconsciously reacted the way I did to the 'common clock" so to say. I'm much calmer and laid back because of it. And if I go outside during the day I'll wear shades most of the time because that apparently is where I used to get my headaches from years ago (along with a aural sensory overload from traffic and such; and yes I tried the with and without thing and could pinpoint that exact type of headache). There's a lot of things I just changed in my daily to being "my personal things" which made me feel much more comfortable, much like personal therapy.
I think it's mostly a sensory thing and looking back at the past there's a lot things I did back then, that really added up and made sense. Here's one; as a teen I slept very few hours, because I had to go to school during the day and just didn't care about it. Probably I was way to tired to even have decent issues about everything there. But fact was, that I had a few paperroutes and started my jobs at 3 or 4 am till 7 or 8, and then went to school. The quiet I had during the night when I was out doing my job, felt good enough to not bother quiting such job. So as a teen I lived during the night by choice, and did my time during the day mandatory... as I got older I had more choice in this though. So as a teen I got in "touch" with the reverse daytime thing and that felt way better.
Might add some here; surely some will come to mind. Just had to post it before the entire topic slips my mind again.
On a sidenote; because I had these "liberties" I feel I kinda stayed under the "spectrum radar" for that long.
And was this before or after you might have your official diagnosis?
Or putting it differently, are there things you tried once, and if you did those out of sheer curiosity, it felt a lot less distressing?
For instance, I shave most of my body hair because it itches the heck out of me (and no, I don't think that does have to do with poor hygiene). But at some point I decided "i'll shave it off" and then I figured "this feels good". Much better than if before. The same applies for me living mostly during night and sleeping during day. Little did I know that I subconsciously reacted the way I did to the 'common clock" so to say. I'm much calmer and laid back because of it. And if I go outside during the day I'll wear shades most of the time because that apparently is where I used to get my headaches from years ago (along with a aural sensory overload from traffic and such; and yes I tried the with and without thing and could pinpoint that exact type of headache). There's a lot of things I just changed in my daily to being "my personal things" which made me feel much more comfortable, much like personal therapy.
I think it's mostly a sensory thing and looking back at the past there's a lot things I did back then, that really added up and made sense. Here's one; as a teen I slept very few hours, because I had to go to school during the day and just didn't care about it. Probably I was way to tired to even have decent issues about everything there. But fact was, that I had a few paperroutes and started my jobs at 3 or 4 am till 7 or 8, and then went to school. The quiet I had during the night when I was out doing my job, felt good enough to not bother quiting such job. So as a teen I lived during the night by choice, and did my time during the day mandatory... as I got older I had more choice in this though. So as a teen I got in "touch" with the reverse daytime thing and that felt way better.
Might add some here; surely some will come to mind. Just had to post it before the entire topic slips my mind again.
On a sidenote; because I had these "liberties" I feel I kinda stayed under the "spectrum radar" for that long.
