Vocalizing internal thoughts

[Jamgoth]

As some of you may have deduced, I have aspergers. This really doesn't bother me for the most part. I prefer be alone than with other people, and although I've made the occasional social gaff with schoolmates, I seem to get along fine on and professional level and with adults. However, one thing I hate is that I am constantly vocalizing my internal thoughts. This has been very severe, and I can't seem to control it. It has led to some of the most humiliating moments of my life. Is there some way to treat this? I really want this to stop before I go off for college in a few weeks.

 

[Loomis]

As some of you may have deduced, I have aspergers. This really doesn't bother me for the most part. I prefer be alone than with other people, and although I've made the occasional social gaff with schoolmates, I seem to get along fine on and professional level and with adults. However, one thing I hate is that I am constantly vocalizing my internal thoughts. This has been very severe, and I can't seem to control it. It has led to some of the most humiliating moments of my life. Is there some way to treat this? I really want this to stop before I go off for college in a few weeks.

I am not sure what you mean but aspies, including myself, have a tendency to tell the truth when people ask us a question. Sometimes the questioner does not want a truthful answer but we are too dense to pick up the social cue. For example, wife or girlfriend says: Do I look fat? Yes is the wrong answer even if she does look fat.

Also, aspies have a tendency to go on and on telling someone everything they might be experiencing even though any NT with an ounce of sense would lie. For example, you are at a party and someone says why are you standing up? You say, I was at the doctor this morning to treat my double hernia and enlarged prostate. These conditions are causing me to have erectile dysfunction so my doctor gave me a steroid injection into my rectum and told me not to sit for 24 hours. This is of course an extreme example but you get the idea.

 

[smith2267]

I think he means thinking out loud thoughts that should be kept private.
I could definitely do this id I let myself...at 46 I've learned to hide my differences. It just takes practice.

 

[Kelly]

Sounds like it could be echolalia Jamgoth, which I have but I'm fortunate enough to be able to control it in public (although sometimes my eye starts to twitch if I can't make my noises and things).

It's not entirely my internal thoughts that are broadcast, a random word or sentence may pop in my head and I'll blurt it out or I will repeat something I have just heard / seen. I also have my regular noises and words that I say around the house all day, so far I haven't found anything that stops me doing it but like I said I'm lucky in that I can control it in public (mainly by not talking much and stimming).

How long has it been happening for? Just perhaps it's tourettes as that is a common co-morbid with aspie's, I know mine is not tourette's because it took over as my main stim from my hand patterns after a huge change (moving 300 miles away from my family) and I can control it to an extent. Maybe have a word with your doctor and try and get to the bottom of it, good luck

 

[King_Oni]

I actually need to talk to myself to get my thoughts cleared out a bit, so I have monologues pretty often. However, I don't really want others to overhear me... it's none of their business.

However, I'm rarely around people as such, I'm usually in my room for about 20 hours a day at least, so that's where I can sort out my thoughts pretty well. Being on a computer helps a bit to write them down instead of talking. If I really need to get them out, I'll go for a walk, preferably at nighttime. I rarely run into anyone in this city, so I can have rather extensive monologues without being afraid that people overhear me. The nighttime walks do fit in with my normal behaviour as such, since I'm more of nightperson anyway

 

[Jamgoth]

This is different. I have never had this problem. I usually lie to keep things simple, even when the lie is flimsy.

 

[Jamgoth]

It is not tourettes because it's not a repetitive word or phrase I am muttering. I seem to be more conscious about this in public, and thus able to control it better, (my parents don't really care, so I don't mind doing it in the privacy of my own home.) This has been happening my whole life, through sheer discipline, I have been able to moderate it. For example, if it is not a conversation I am thinking of, but more like an action, like lets say I am thinking about riding on a motorcycle, or something like that. I tend to physically move. When I was little, I would hop up and down. Now, I have sort of controlled that to pacing, which still makes some people uncomfortable, but at least it doesn't make people think I'm nuts.

Although, at one point in my life, whenever I would remember something painfully embarrassing, I would inadvertently yell an obscenity. I have seem to have gotten over this.

 

[Jamgoth]

Yeah, I don't want to vocalize my thoughts in a public space at all, even if it is at night, and there is no one around, because there could be someone around that I am not aware of.

 

[King_Oni]

With me actually, the best thing to do with this is just monologue about silly stuff and laugh maniacally about your own ramblings... so that even if people are around incidentally, they will not approach you cause they think you're totally insane, lol

Yeah, I don't want to vocalize my thoughts in a public space at all, even if it is at night, and there is no one around, because there could be someone around that I am not aware of.

That sounds a bit like paranoia (not saying you suffer from it though)

You could of course tone down your voice a bit and make it more whisper-ish... does it bother you more that people overhear what you say or that they hear that you're talking to yourself?

 

[Bay]

As some of you may have deduced, I have aspergers. This really doesn't bother me for the most part. I prefer be alone than with other people, and although I've made the occasional social gaff with schoolmates, I seem to get along fine on and professional level and with adults. However, one thing I hate is that I am constantly vocalizing my internal thoughts. This has been very severe, and I can't seem to control it. It has led to some of the most humiliating moments of my life. Is there some way to treat this? I really want this to stop before I go off for college in a few weeks.

Gosh this sounds problematic for you, Jamgoth, and I don't blame you for wanting to get it under control. I wish that I could help. I do this too, but only occassionally and only a word or two, usually. It looks to others as though I just blurt out a random word, but it always has to do with whatever it is I am thinking. Usually people just laugh at me and say something like "there she goes again".