This is a habit I developed long ago, to help me vent more easily and also as "therapy" for when I need a break from reality. If youre scratching your head at that, by therapy I mean I watch/look at different media depending on what I feel or how much energy I have. A rundown of my categorizations:
Neutral, indifferent: Speed runs, vine collections, fan art, live stream highlights
Happy: Jackpot music found in Pachinko games, things by Vocaloid, catchy songs, the occasional cat or bird video
Kind of sad: Angsty music, songs about sad feelings, the occasional serious anime scene
Moderately sad: Same as above, but more...relatable?
I Don't Wanna Talk About It: Music that people cry to or listen to with empty snack boxes next to them while buried under two or three weighted blankets in a puddle of tears being heavily spilled from an urge to desperately clean my soul of corrupted emotions
The Benadryl Blues: "Suicide Note" by Kyle Spratt being blasted at max volume on a Bluetooth speaker
Annoyed: Stress ball, playing Skyrim quests that require stealing important items
Aggravated: Please, knock it off.
Angry: "Take it Off!" by Ke$ha playing in earbuds while I swerve around cops I'm GTA 4
Very Angry: "CLICK CLICK BOOM" by Saliva playing while throwing cars at crowds of people in PROTOTYPE 2
Livid: "Dead Bodies Everywhere" by KoRn while rocketing people with an RPG in GTA 4/PROTOTYPE 2
Get The Blip Out Of My Face!!: Pacing back and forth really fast hyperventilating and seething at the teeth, possibly meditating in the shower at full heat to steam it off
Apocalypse Protocol No. 666: Somebody better knock me out or somebody gets hurt, badly.
Ragnarok Mode: You're going to die. [This isn't something I would actually do; this is just an exaggerated way of saying "I'm having a very bad day and I need some space, and ive been pushed to the point where I'm about to start using combat as a communication outlet. Please give me time to cool off."
Comical: The "Weird" side of YouTube, as its called
Lolwat?: Videos of things apparently not supposed to happen in reality, but look that way because someone is really good at video effects; memory scrambling programs that forcibly glitch Nintendo games so that Mario's head is on his foot
What The Heck Did I Just Watch?: Self explanatory.
Kawaii: Fan animations of "small" Pokémon doing things like showing affection or playing hide and seek in a sock...yeah, when youre 22 with autism and depression is your enemy, you'll do anything.
Theatrical: Roleplay in a Discord server with a character type I'm familiar with, monologuing a character type IRL, writing creepypasta or fanfiction
I Think Therefore I Am: Walls of Text to irrelevant communities about why Autism is not merely an excuse to do outlandish gestures and actions and that while it can be viewed as a staggering cripple of the mind, it is still part of a human body that deserves to be treated humanly
I Have No Scream And I Must Mouth: I'm in so much physical pain that I can't think straight (I actually am suffering with two teeth that are royally jacked up and are slated for removal by a dental surgeon; when flare ups start, saints alive it's awful, and it doesn't stop until it's medicated.)
Kind of tired: Moderately calm videos or soundscapes
Sleepy: Music of the "Rest Areas" found in the Kirby games, or the areas in Pokemon games where mythical or legendary Pokemon are found
Heavy: Guided meditations, or self-hypnosis recordings or visuals
Windows Is Shutting Down: Fall face down into a pillow, then wake up the next day forgetting what happened
When Your Legs Don't Work Like They Used To Before: Found somebody i'm really fond of, trading romance songs and such (I haven't had this happen for a long time
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Yet another wall of text...god I need to find easier ways to do this. But hopefully this gives others some ideas to vent...some say venting is harmful, for me its the only way I can properly filter stress and anger; I keep telling people that holding it back only backs it up and I eventually get impacted with rage, it turns to bile and poisons me...
But the WON'T UNDERSTAND...
(blink, blink blink) Okay, gotta go, see ya!
Neutral, indifferent: Speed runs, vine collections, fan art, live stream highlights
Happy: Jackpot music found in Pachinko games, things by Vocaloid, catchy songs, the occasional cat or bird video
Kind of sad: Angsty music, songs about sad feelings, the occasional serious anime scene
Moderately sad: Same as above, but more...relatable?
I Don't Wanna Talk About It: Music that people cry to or listen to with empty snack boxes next to them while buried under two or three weighted blankets in a puddle of tears being heavily spilled from an urge to desperately clean my soul of corrupted emotions
The Benadryl Blues: "Suicide Note" by Kyle Spratt being blasted at max volume on a Bluetooth speaker
Annoyed: Stress ball, playing Skyrim quests that require stealing important items
Aggravated: Please, knock it off.
Angry: "Take it Off!" by Ke$ha playing in earbuds while I swerve around cops I'm GTA 4
Very Angry: "CLICK CLICK BOOM" by Saliva playing while throwing cars at crowds of people in PROTOTYPE 2
Livid: "Dead Bodies Everywhere" by KoRn while rocketing people with an RPG in GTA 4/PROTOTYPE 2
Get The Blip Out Of My Face!!: Pacing back and forth really fast hyperventilating and seething at the teeth, possibly meditating in the shower at full heat to steam it off
Apocalypse Protocol No. 666: Somebody better knock me out or somebody gets hurt, badly.
Ragnarok Mode: You're going to die. [This isn't something I would actually do; this is just an exaggerated way of saying "I'm having a very bad day and I need some space, and ive been pushed to the point where I'm about to start using combat as a communication outlet. Please give me time to cool off."
Comical: The "Weird" side of YouTube, as its called
Lolwat?: Videos of things apparently not supposed to happen in reality, but look that way because someone is really good at video effects; memory scrambling programs that forcibly glitch Nintendo games so that Mario's head is on his foot
What The Heck Did I Just Watch?: Self explanatory.
Kawaii: Fan animations of "small" Pokémon doing things like showing affection or playing hide and seek in a sock...yeah, when youre 22 with autism and depression is your enemy, you'll do anything.
Theatrical: Roleplay in a Discord server with a character type I'm familiar with, monologuing a character type IRL, writing creepypasta or fanfiction
I Think Therefore I Am: Walls of Text to irrelevant communities about why Autism is not merely an excuse to do outlandish gestures and actions and that while it can be viewed as a staggering cripple of the mind, it is still part of a human body that deserves to be treated humanly
I Have No Scream And I Must Mouth: I'm in so much physical pain that I can't think straight (I actually am suffering with two teeth that are royally jacked up and are slated for removal by a dental surgeon; when flare ups start, saints alive it's awful, and it doesn't stop until it's medicated.)
Kind of tired: Moderately calm videos or soundscapes
Sleepy: Music of the "Rest Areas" found in the Kirby games, or the areas in Pokemon games where mythical or legendary Pokemon are found
Heavy: Guided meditations, or self-hypnosis recordings or visuals
Windows Is Shutting Down: Fall face down into a pillow, then wake up the next day forgetting what happened
When Your Legs Don't Work Like They Used To Before: Found somebody i'm really fond of, trading romance songs and such (I haven't had this happen for a long time
)Yet another wall of text...god I need to find easier ways to do this. But hopefully this gives others some ideas to vent...some say venting is harmful, for me its the only way I can properly filter stress and anger; I keep telling people that holding it back only backs it up and I eventually get impacted with rage, it turns to bile and poisons me...
But the WON'T UNDERSTAND...
(blink, blink blink) Okay, gotta go, see ya!
