Christopher Payne
New Member
Hi there,
My name is Christopher, I’m happy to be in this forum I joined because I am unsure if I am on the spectrum or not. Some reasons that lead me to believe I am include; I have a strong aversion to certain textures as far as foods go as well as touch, I hate the feeling of rubbing paper between my fingers or rubbing my hands on denim.
I have no impulse control organically and have to put mental restraints on myself even though I often feel a strong urge to do or say said thing. I’m also not a touchy person. I’m only physically intimate with my partner. Any other sort of affection is very weird for me and makes me feel awkward. I also find that I have trouble making friends because I can’t seem to make a connection on an emotional level.
I find myself having little rituals for certain things and it has to be that way or I just don’t feel right, almost everything I do or the way I do it is opposite of what I believe to be normal. Like doing math in my head or even the way I clean. It has to be specific and precise. I'm never really comfortable in noisy or fast environments, it raises my anxiety levels really high, and I’m not really one to be at any sort of social gathering.
Another big reason I’m thinking I’m on the spectrum is because I’m really sensitive to stimuli, like if there’s too much going on I start to freak out and my head starts spinning. For instance a loud tv playing and someone is talking and the lights are bright etc.
Working is a whole problem for me. I have never been able to keep a job I always quit because it becomes too much for me. I can’t handle very much stress at all.
I am applying for disability right now and could use all the help I could get. How do I go about getting a diagnosis? Where do I start? Do I need to be diagnosed or am I a normal person with other mental conditions? I don’t feel like my current pcp would be an ally when it comes to this sort of thing. So my question is Does anyone out there think I should be tested? I’ll leave a poll.
Thank you guys so much for reading this and helping me out. You could have been doing so many other things. I hope I have introduced myself well enough I know this probably isn’t the right part of the forum for all this but hey, it’s a good place to start right?
My name is Christopher, I’m happy to be in this forum I joined because I am unsure if I am on the spectrum or not. Some reasons that lead me to believe I am include; I have a strong aversion to certain textures as far as foods go as well as touch, I hate the feeling of rubbing paper between my fingers or rubbing my hands on denim.
I have no impulse control organically and have to put mental restraints on myself even though I often feel a strong urge to do or say said thing. I’m also not a touchy person. I’m only physically intimate with my partner. Any other sort of affection is very weird for me and makes me feel awkward. I also find that I have trouble making friends because I can’t seem to make a connection on an emotional level.
I find myself having little rituals for certain things and it has to be that way or I just don’t feel right, almost everything I do or the way I do it is opposite of what I believe to be normal. Like doing math in my head or even the way I clean. It has to be specific and precise. I'm never really comfortable in noisy or fast environments, it raises my anxiety levels really high, and I’m not really one to be at any sort of social gathering.
Another big reason I’m thinking I’m on the spectrum is because I’m really sensitive to stimuli, like if there’s too much going on I start to freak out and my head starts spinning. For instance a loud tv playing and someone is talking and the lights are bright etc.
Working is a whole problem for me. I have never been able to keep a job I always quit because it becomes too much for me. I can’t handle very much stress at all.
I am applying for disability right now and could use all the help I could get. How do I go about getting a diagnosis? Where do I start? Do I need to be diagnosed or am I a normal person with other mental conditions? I don’t feel like my current pcp would be an ally when it comes to this sort of thing. So my question is Does anyone out there think I should be tested? I’ll leave a poll.
Thank you guys so much for reading this and helping me out. You could have been doing so many other things. I hope I have introduced myself well enough I know this probably isn’t the right part of the forum for all this but hey, it’s a good place to start right?