This is written 8/8/23 at 10:44pm.
Hello... My name is Shelby. I'm a guy, yes I know I have a girls name. But that's OK because I'm gay so I'm kinda halfway anyways haha. I've been looking for a place to put a blog for a very long time. I used to have a blog on a website called bluelight, but I got bullied off of it and it just ended badly for a multitude of reasons.
However I thought it was really cathartic to write like I figured a lot of things about myself and I got to bounce some ideas off of other people and mostly I heard back how stupid those ideas were but also I heard some good feedback too, and I'm really grateful for that.
I love writing. I'm much better with my written words than I am my speaking words. I don't say too much in real life but it all comes out in my writing.
Just so that way you know... I'm in active addiction. I've tried NA, AA, and rehab and none of them have worked, even though I absolutely hated my addiction from the beginning. My doc (drug of choice) is methamphetamine. I usually smoke it but my favorite way is shooting it. I've been an addict for about 8 years now and I've had stretches of clean time, and I had a lot of cleantime when I was writing on bluelight so I'm hoping to go down that route again on this website.
Ultimately what I'm hoping to achieve with this blog is I want to help other autistics who are in my situation. Autistics who didn't know they were autistics, autistics who wonder why the conventional way of rehab and 12 steps doesn't work for them. The idea here is that one day I'm going to find a way out of this ******** and I'll have the ultimate guide written down on how to get clean for autistics with adhd and pda.
Because nobody should be in this alone and then have someone tell them that they're not trying hard enough just because they don't get it. No you ARE trying, and I see you, it's THEM that doesn't get YOU, not the other way around. I know how hard it is to see so many other autistics in addiction as well and wonder why there hasn't been a solution to this ******** already. Why nobody even acknowledges that you're more likely to be an addict if you're neurodivergent... I know... And we're going to make it out of this... Together... I know how hard it is. And you're not alone.
I'll probably come back and rewrite this intro one day but that's all I got for now.
It's okay to write me I'm looking to have more interaction with other autistic people.
I'm glad you're here.
Shelby 8/8/23 11:04pm
Ps. It made me attach a photo for some reason. That's my dog. He's a good boy. He's also my best friend. His name is Butch, or, Butchy or Butchy Lee or Mr. Puddin pie
Hello... My name is Shelby. I'm a guy, yes I know I have a girls name. But that's OK because I'm gay so I'm kinda halfway anyways haha. I've been looking for a place to put a blog for a very long time. I used to have a blog on a website called bluelight, but I got bullied off of it and it just ended badly for a multitude of reasons.
However I thought it was really cathartic to write like I figured a lot of things about myself and I got to bounce some ideas off of other people and mostly I heard back how stupid those ideas were but also I heard some good feedback too, and I'm really grateful for that.
I love writing. I'm much better with my written words than I am my speaking words. I don't say too much in real life but it all comes out in my writing.
Just so that way you know... I'm in active addiction. I've tried NA, AA, and rehab and none of them have worked, even though I absolutely hated my addiction from the beginning. My doc (drug of choice) is methamphetamine. I usually smoke it but my favorite way is shooting it. I've been an addict for about 8 years now and I've had stretches of clean time, and I had a lot of cleantime when I was writing on bluelight so I'm hoping to go down that route again on this website.
Ultimately what I'm hoping to achieve with this blog is I want to help other autistics who are in my situation. Autistics who didn't know they were autistics, autistics who wonder why the conventional way of rehab and 12 steps doesn't work for them. The idea here is that one day I'm going to find a way out of this ******** and I'll have the ultimate guide written down on how to get clean for autistics with adhd and pda.
Because nobody should be in this alone and then have someone tell them that they're not trying hard enough just because they don't get it. No you ARE trying, and I see you, it's THEM that doesn't get YOU, not the other way around. I know how hard it is to see so many other autistics in addiction as well and wonder why there hasn't been a solution to this ******** already. Why nobody even acknowledges that you're more likely to be an addict if you're neurodivergent... I know... And we're going to make it out of this... Together... I know how hard it is. And you're not alone.
I'll probably come back and rewrite this intro one day but that's all I got for now.
It's okay to write me I'm looking to have more interaction with other autistic people.
I'm glad you're here.
Shelby 8/8/23 11:04pm
Ps. It made me attach a photo for some reason. That's my dog. He's a good boy. He's also my best friend. His name is Butch, or, Butchy or Butchy Lee or Mr. Puddin pie
