Does anyone else seem to have a turtle trail that they follow. By that I mean a radius of familiar places that you frequent regularly. I do. Everyday I check the mail and everyday I find an excuse to go a block away to the grocery store. I go to church which is two trolley stops away every Wednesday for a small Bible study since Sundays are too raucous and boisterous. And I occasionally go to the library which is one trolley stop away. Everything within my little turtle trail. Occasionally I will venture to the walking paths nearby for exercise but not too often. For the most part I feel like the world is a very dangerous place and walking through it alone downtown as a single woman is very scary. I mostly hurry home to my tiny studio apartment where I pace like a gerbil on a wheel. I wish the world was a safer place where I could peek outside of my turtle shell more often and see who is around. When I have ventured to peep
out I see violence and homelessness and I hear yelling and swears. Also love seems to be leaving the world and bitterness is replacing it. Is there anywhere to go to feel safe and loved anymore? How can I make a friend? I feel so alone.
