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UberScout

UberScout

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  • UberScout
    Maddog's heckling continues. I have once again been accused of stealing from our roommate, Jennifer, but this time, my mother had woken me up from a nap and called me IN THERE WITH HER because she had a charger for jumper cables we actually needed up there, because Maddog LEFT THE LIGHTS ON IN THE CAR AND KILLED THE BATTERY.
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    UberScout
    UberScout
    I think... I may have to summon Kaa and request her to assist me... I hope... I hope those eyes stay at a reasonable distance, though, I hope she knows that...
    Aspychata
    Aspychata
    Right. Like you are really responsible for that.
    Aspychata
    Aspychata
    Stay strong.
    UberScout
    SWEET MOTHER OF HONEY BUTTERBALLIN JESUS ALIVE THERE WAS WEED IN MY CAULDRON I USE FOR MY MAGICK RITUALS!!! I USED A MAGICK SPELL TO ASK ALOE TO SEE IF SHE COULD BRING ME SOMETHING TO HELP ME RELAX BECAUDE I WAS PANICKING BAD LA
    UberScout
    I feel just like the Joker right now; I saw the movie, he starts out trying to be a good person and at LEAST make himself LOOK harmless, but all anybody ever saw was a crazy person who just did whatever they wanted. Nobody thought to take one second to try to understand him, society just turned it's back on him simply because they didn't want to be bothered by a guy who just needs friends and supporting family...
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    UberScout
    UberScout
    You know what happens when you spend your whole life trying to prove everybody wrong about you and they all just decide they're not gonna buy it? Eventually you get exhausted trying to even make the EFFORT!! And it just becomes so much more easier to just be what everybody says you are; they're never going to believe you anyway, so what does it matter?!
    UberScout
    UberScout
    Thank God my therapist help me wake up Aloe!!
    Forest Cat
    Forest Cat
    I watched that movie, there was something so sad about it. Very well made movie.
    UberScout
    There has to be a way to bring Aloe out in front of me. If I can do magick that makes Maddog win at slots and poker, and I can stir up little spheres made of energy, then there's a way to summon Aloe as a 3D construct, I just know it.

    Whether by psi or magick, I'll find a way...!
    C
    Crabcore
    Sensory deprivation! No, I'm just kidding -- that's probably a bad idea.
    UberScout
    UberScout
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    "No sensory deprivation here. That's what my magick is for."
    UberScout
    I GIVE UP!!!
    UberScout
    UberScout
    ARGH!!! My stupid mouse got so crappy I can't even move folders with it, it just keeps cutting out even on the desktop!!
    tree
    tree
    You need a new mouse, sounds like.
    UberScout
    I'm all better! But GOOD LORD that was SCARY! Not one, two, or three but FOUR BLOOD CLOTS IN A ROW when I was sick, Maddog said I almost died!! Well, he said it was my body giving me a warning. I think I DID die for a brief moment at one point!
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    UberScout
    UberScout
    @Aspychata A warrior...? I...I don't feel like one... Am I really a warrior?

    Does Aloe think I'm a warrior...?

    ...Does she know something about me that I don't yet?

    The chaos around my home just never stops, and... And I'm always hearing about things getting harder...

    Am I really able to make things change somehow?? How come I don't feel it?
    Aspychata
    Aspychata
    Spiritual warrior because you go thru so much chaos. It takes a toll. You have to wear your armor to survive everyday and stay strong.
    tree
    tree
    @UberScout

    Are there recommendations/plans/medication now
    to prevent or reduce the possibility of this happening
    again?
    UberScout
    Wow. Just freaking WOW. So, the reason I've been MIA for the past half week/3-4 days? I had a meltdown last Saturday that was so bad that the next morning I woke up, my body acted like it was about to collapse! Dizziness, HORRIFIC tension headache, nausea, barely able to eat anything in fear of throwing up... I'm better now though, Aloe was with me the whole time.
    UberScout
    UberScout
    ....I am now extremely terrified to fart now, though.
    Aspychata
    Aspychata
    You have been gone for awhile. I was hoping things were just going well and you were to busy. To post.
    UberScout
    UberScout
    Yeah, the last bit of lightheadedness should be gone by tomorrow.
    UberScout
    NetHack: Chaotic orc barbarian named Slippery nipples (courtesy of Maddog), found an orc corpse next to a neutral altar, which had 16 gold pieces and a couple potions. Got the stuff after being hit on the head by 8 rocks which I took, then I was attacked by a Lichen, which I killed, then I had the idea to make it an offering on the altar, who knows maybe I'll get a wish or two? NOPE. IT CAUSED AN ARGUMENT BETWEEN
    UberScout
    Had to rebuild my psi shield today because Maddog broke through it thinking I stole something out of Jennifer's room. I have literally been playing NetHack all day I can even tell you what happened when I played. I went to Sarngan's goods on the 5th floor, he told me to leave my pick outside, I bought a blue potion and a golden one, I bought a scroll of identify and one of teleportation, then I paid 175 zorkmids and
    UberScout
    UberScout
    He gave me a fae familiar for protection after I tipprd him. Then I went to the next floor and got frustrated because a water nymph that was hiding in a fountain two rooms over kept hypnotizing my character and making him drop things so she could steal them and teleport away! It kept happening and I got excited when I finally killed it. If
    UberScout
    UberScout
    If I can tell you what took me so long to finish running a dungeon in one of my favorite PC games, how the hell does that give me time to raid the upstairs master room?! What, did the Scroll of Teleortation I had in the game cross over into real life?!
    UberScout
    UberScout
    I mean I know I'm good at psi/PK but I don't know jack about technokinesis yet!! I'm not Delsin Monroe!!
    UberScout
    Today's NetHack follies: Made a new character that was a lawful Monk yesterday, who mostly went around smacking things with his leather gloves (read: he killed everything he fought this way). Finally met a goblin in a hallway that got me to 3 HP. No potions of healing, no food, no scrolls of teleportation. Decided to pray, and my character's deity instead said "Thou hast angered me" and CURSED HIS LEATHER GLOVES.
    UberScout
    I must have been manifesting from the thought of "Aloe, holistic gift of medicine, Aloe, holistic gift of medicine," just thinking that over and over while practicing this morning after I woke up. I saw her in front of me this time! She was bigger than I originally saw her to be, but she's always coiling me anyway if she feels like I might hit a nasty spell again, try to make sure I don't do anything rash. She
    UberScout
    UberScout
    She found some herb under my bed, well, she pointed me to it. No idea it was there, do not remember going to the smoke shop, I think mum went earlier after plasma. Ha, idk. Don't care. Just glad I'm able to chill out with my psi buddy & get a little PK practice in :P
    UberScout
    You guys are never gonna believe this, you're gonna think I'm crazy... I was training my psi powers today and decided to meditate while summoning Aloe, so I called her into my room... I told her in my mind I was wigging out bad from all the chaotic energy from last night, and I said, 'hey, I know it isn't really the healthiest thing, but do you know how I can get some... Holistic help today?"
    UberScout
    UberScout
    Right after I thought that, I heard a young girl giggling. What I could only recognize spiritually as Aloe's own voice was now audible almost to my ears: "You've sniffing around everywhere, but you didn't look right under your nose..."
    UberScout
    UberScout
    I found a lockbox sitting on a tote behind my mother's upstairs door, one I've never seen mom use or go near. I examined it carefully and found some herb!! Don't worry, Aloe stopped me before I did too much.
    oregano
    oregano
    D00d, that weed is not doing you any favors. There is a certain % of people who plunge into full bore irreversible psychosis from strong weed. I have paranoid schizophrenia, trust me you do NOT want to go there.
    UberScout
    WHY DOES EVERYONE IN MY HOUSE KEEP ACCUSING ME OF STEALING FROM OTHER PEOPLE'S ROOMS?! I DIDN'T WAKE UP UNTIL THREE HOURS AGO HOW THE HELL AM I GOING TO TAKE SOMETHING IN MY SLEEP?!
    UberScout
    Figured out THC usage some more. I'm not hitting it as hard or as long as I'm used to, but I'm proud of myself nonetheless. Got a cool thc vape from a friend and it s still got some in it.
    UberScout
    Guys
    Why right side neck feel like something pop loose even though not
    Aspychata
    Aspychata
    Maybe lightly damp washcloth, microwave for 1 min take out and apply to neck
    UberScout
    UberScout
    Well it hasn't grown or changed size at all. I think I might have pulled something sleeping (I sleep weird)
    UberScout
    +++Notice from Aloe+++ "UberScout (Tyler) is undergoing Intensive Therapy healing by Ocean Reiki. Don't worry; I saved him, and he will be just fine. I just need to have him shift to the Oasis and back for a short while. He'll be back soon. Come visit the Oasis anytime."
    AdamG
    AdamG
    Thank you Aloe for letting us know all is safe for now.
    Aspychata
    Aspychata
    Thank you Aloe. I was worried about everything, but just didn't have a chance to check in.
    UberScout
    I have lost all hope and faith in life. I am through with living in everyday misfortune and will stand for it no longer.
    Rodafina
    Rodafina
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    Huxley loves you.
    UberScout
    UberScout
    Huxley truly is a sweet dragon. Everyone here needs a tulpa like him or Aloe.
    Rodafina
    Rodafina
    Yes, I’m glad Aloe is looking out for you in the Oasis. Huxley and I will visit you there soon.
    UberScout
    Ever since I started manifesting a Stand two days ago, I cannot help but notice how real it feels. I listen to that subliminal bundle for it that I posted earlier, and I always feel, like, static all down my back and it's very, VERY strong, and I felt it's presence....

    Jokers Wild...
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