An Introductory Attempt

[Isadoorian]

Welcome to the Forums! I hope you make new friends and enjoy your stay in the process!

 

[Autistamatic]

Hi @PPOI! And welcome to the community
This is a great place for finding out about autism from people who live with it, both the downsides and the upsides. I hope you settle in here.

 

[Loren]

Hello and Welcome !

 

[SusanLR]

Welcome PPOI!.
I think you'll start understanding yourself more by being here and reading about ASD here.

 

[PPOI!]

Whats a PPOI?

It's nonsense, really. At least in the way I was intending to reference it; it is a Japanese word suffix. I like angsty things and have a handle of Japanese so I wanted to say something that is tossed out. But also, it means -ish or -like, as in "childlike" or "kiddish". But mostly it just sounds cute.

 

[Onna]

Thanks for your reply!

Hahah, I know what you mean but I can’t help but feeling like, “oh, another thing wrong with my brain!” The fact that there’s this gender gap in recognition and treatment is really awful. That and comorbidity with my other things is all so much recently... But I’ll try. Thanks again

I had the same thought about adding another problem to the list of problems. But now the more I’ve learnt about Autism in myself, I realise that perhaps all the anxiety, depression, PTSD etc, is likely because of the autism.
Autism is the ‘leader’ of depression anxiety etc, created due to a lack of coping skills for the autism, which was due to a lack of knowledge that I had autism.

 

[Sarah S]

In my case i can say that when finally being diagnosed and learnt about ASD it has FINALLY given me the final missing puzzle peaces of why i am how i am and so on after searching al my life earlier and dont being able to fit the pieces in to only my MBD and ADHD (i can also ad i FINALLY found the last missing pieces yesterday when i stumbled over a excellent description of how female ASD is displayed etc... (needles to say i fit MOST of it )

Aspienwomen: Moving towards an adult female profile of Autism/Asperger Syndrome

 

[Tom]

Thanks for the explanation. I thought it might mean something. Tolkien played around with the suffix 'ish' and wrote some things with it. I think he tried to coin the phrase 'ishness'. Your intro (and style) reminded me of something off an old parody/comedy album back in the vinyl days by a group called Firesign Theatre. A man gets on a bus and sees someone dressed as Bozo the clown and says 'Are you Bozo?' and the clown answers 'Yes, we are all Bozos on this bus.' and then you hear a chorus of clowns beeping their noses.

 

[PPOI!]

I had the same thought about adding another problem to the list of problems. But now the more I’ve learnt about Autism in myself, I realise that perhaps all the anxiety, depression, PTSD etc, is likely because of the autism.
Autism is the ‘leader’ of depression anxiety etc, created due to a lack of coping skills for the autism, which was due to a lack of knowledge that I had autism.

This is still all new to me, but I feel like I'm making a lot of connections that weren't there before now. (I get so depressed that X cliche ousted me in school so I got depressed and anxiety multiples... but maybe it was due to a Spectrum disorder?) I still have a lot of questions to ask and thinking to do. Do you feel that you're able to cope a lot better in situations with your awareness now?

 

[PPOI!]

Thanks for the explanation. I thought it might mean something. Tolkien played around with the suffix 'ish' and wrote some things with it. I think he tried to coin the phrase 'ishness'. Your intro (and style) reminded me of something off an old parody/comedy album back in the vinyl days by a group called Firesign Theatre. A man gets on a bus and sees someone dressed as Bozo the clown and says 'Are you Bozo?' and the clown answers 'Yes, we are all Bozos on this bus.' and then you hear a chorus of clowns beeping their noses.

Thanks, and no problem! Probably the biggest reason I've flown under the radar so long is that one of my obsessions has always been language, wordplay, creative writing; things like that. I was in school when LOTR movies came out and I remember nerding out about and Tokein (whom was quite the linguistic puppeteer, if I do say so myself).

I'll have to look up Fireside Theater. The reference you made reminds me some of the classic "Who's on First?", which I had memorized at one point.

 

[Fino]

Do you feel that you're able to cope a lot better in situations with your awareness now?

Yes!! Instead of feeling horribly anxious and being confused and feeling bad and not knowing why or wondering why it was so hard or what exactly was so hard or anything.

It's like fog leaving!

 

[Onna]

This is still all new to me, but I feel like I'm making a lot of connections that weren't there before now. (I get so depressed that X cliche ousted me in school so I got depressed and anxiety multiples... but maybe it was due to a Spectrum disorder?) I still have a lot of questions to ask and thinking to do. Do you feel that you're able to cope a lot better in situations with your awareness now?

Well I noticed quite a lot that may have been due to autism. Such as getting depressed because I didn’t have the motivation to make friends, because I found it too difficult, because of the autism. I also had school refusal, likely due to being so overwhelmed and stressed... due to autism. There’s many more examples.
I wrote about discovering that sensory overload, was the cause of most of any irritability I had etc. and was able to recognise that was due to autism. Before the diagnosis I didn’t pay enough attention to it, I shut it out, just thinking I was in an irritable mood. But now I recognise the importance of not wearing uncomfortable clothing, and having a calmer environment. So yes there are ways in which I’m coping better, but it’s a slow learning process, it made me question what was AS and what was ‘normal’.