Perkinsj88
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I have been placed on many medications. Zyprexa (developed for use in schizophrenia) was forced in me for my "manic-depressive disorder" commonly known as bi-polar. I would estimate during my childhood, I was on 15 or more different meds (not all at once lol). I should have gotten a paycheck for being a test subject. At the age of 24 I am now on Adderall 20mg twice a day for having been diagnosed as ADD/HD. Adderall made me feel amazing at first, it felt like I was normal for the first time in my life. I was able to don't things other people wanted me to do, such mai.tain a job, stay organized, I had no fear when socializing. I knew that I was finally "cured", ha. After about 7 months my body built a resistance to this effect, so I was left socially inept once again. It eventually led to being fired after 1 year and 6 months of working for a company (longest stint I ever achieved) I was fired for "being zoned out" they made other excuses as needed such as poor quality of work (I was a mechanic) I never once had a car not work as intended after I finished it. My mistake was "throwing my service manger under the bus". Well..if you chose to ignore me when I tell you the brake parts are defective I most certainly will. I had proof and he refused to do anything about it, so, I told the customer which was a frequnt customer, she always came out to the shop to chat with me whike I worked. She was a very sweet older lady. Because I did the obvious "right" thing here, I was seen from that day forth as an outsider. (Quite detrimental when you work from commision and the people up front decide how wokr is handed out) . Oh, the day he fired me was the same day I found out my wife was pregnant with our second child. What are the odds? Lol Anyways..I stray off point toi much..I am sorry. I am still forced to take adderall until I can lower my dose enough to minize the mental and psychical withdrawal. I was fed near the equivalent of crystalmet on false pretenses that suggest I had add. I doubt I will ever really trust a doctor again at this point.
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