Adam went for a good walk this morning, trying to figure out why you cannot find employment. you have a very rare skill like me why did it not get recognized my greatest skill is solving puzzles. one big difference between you and I is I do not like computers even through on the surface I should be perfect as a programmer. the need the be completely absolutely logical. was the issue. connecting thinks that should not be connected. does not work with programming. Or going outside formal teaching.
let's change the perspective why could Einstein not get a job after graduation. he shares our unique skill for him and I all the stars lined up. It took an obscure paper no body read in a German journal, not English so luck broke him out or he could have stayed in the patent office. On the surface Albert should have been a very competent mathmagician and that would have been the end of it .He saw connections no one else could see.
keep in mind when your one in a million nobody is actively looking for you worse if your if your one in a billion.
Yes, this is true. I find connections between many things others don't see. This is part of my communication problems. I "go all over the place" to others, and if they are patient I can explain how and why. Then it makes sense, but it is not easy to always do.
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Also, I gain interest in something very quickly, get a little bit good at it, and then lose interest because now something else is more interesting. That doesn't help.
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And I really don't like to think of myself as a genius, or too smart. When I say it, it is because I know I'm smarter than a lot of people, but then again I'm not very smart in so many ways, even downright stupid. So it balances.
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The programming job was my best, but honestly, I'd get lost in just wanting to redesign someone else's work from the ground up. I could do it, but maybe not better? Very structured, although there are many different ways to get from A to B. I found that I like it for a while, then burn out on it, and will maybe pick it up again for a few months. A hobby.
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I'm really not too stuck on getting a job at the moment. My wife does make enough for us, and we are even planning to buy land to live on. So it would help, but I need to be ready first. Probably I'll just do something tedious and boring, so my mind can focus on other things.