Austism/Aspergers - Inner World/Universe...

[Myron]

I've always had an inner world. It's never been very detailed, as it's heavily focused on the characters and their relationships rather than the environment in which they live.

The characters who make up my world all live in a very spacious house together. It's pretty much exactly like "Foster's Home for Imaginary Friends". When I was younger, I used to enjoy having lots of different characters in my mind at once. The largest number I had at once (that I can remember) was probably around 20. Now the largest number I can handle at once is 6.


I used to take characters from existing shows/movies/books/etc. and use them for my stories. These days, though, I am much more interested in creating my own characters, especially ones who are human representations of abstract concepts or objects ("moe anthropomorphism" or "gijinka").

 

[On the Inside]

Interesting question, thanks for the prompting. And thanks to all who have responded, delighted to read your experiences.

I also have an inner world, it has existed for as long as I remember. I don't think of it as fantastic really, just a place much like here, but where things that so often don't go as planned turn out OK if not better. A fantasy world? Not really, just an alternate universe that differs from this one only because I am more effective, can follow through on my ideas, there is no lack of time, money, resources, so things happen, projects are completed, houses built, journeys undertaken. Some of this place has seen the light of day through drawings, constructions, sculpture. Some through words. Some direct experiences. But the vast majority of this landscape/mindscape is held in the brain vault. It is a journey of the spirit, and remains so, as it seldom enters the material plane.

I once thought that it was this that made me interesting, and I believed that there was time, potential, possibility for all of it to come to fruition. Now much of it lies dusty, scattered and stacked in the corners, tucked away in closets, left out on the sidewalk with "FREE" written in marker on cardboard taped to it's side. There was a time when I thought of it as idle navel gazing and tried like hell to snap out of it and get to work. That didn't play out so well, either.

At times, it really gets me down that much of what I imagine does not come into being. I have at times spent too much time in my inner world, to the detriment of the material world, or my part of it at least, and that can be hard to correct if neglected too long. Leads to higher levels of anxiety and panic when I am faced with the reality of a situation.

But there is still time, I have energy, health and a bit of fire left in me. Might take some changes that I'm not so comfortable with, but change will come whether it's easy or not. I am much more aware of my limitations, and gaining a better understanding of my strengths and how to use them. I know there are some treasures waiting to be dusted off, and new ones out there to be found.


“Life is an experimental journey undertaken involuntarily. It is a journey of the spirit through the material world and, since it is the spirit that travels, it is the spirit that is experienced. That is why there exist contemplative souls who have lived more intensely, more widely, more tumultuously than others who have lived their lives purely externally.”

― Fernando Pessoa, The Book of Disquiet

 

[tree]

I do have some deep rooted beliefs about Dark and Light so to speak.

Putting Dark next to Light defines them both.

 

[tree]

I read this thread a few weeks ago and it has taken that long
to say anything about it.
I don't think of myself as having 'an inner world.'

When I am thinking I don't experience it as being
'inner.' What I think just is. It is me having ideas.

My thoughts aren't visible or audible to other people.
I do run movies & flash stills in my head.
I use voices, generally silent, but sometimes subvocal.
Images & words/sounds that make up what I am working out
by thinking.

I decided that I was being too literal about the idea of
'do you have an inner world.' Maybe the question isn't
asking if I have imaginary sims in my head. lol

 

[qwerty]

Putting Dark next to Light defines them both.

I wish there was a sublime button for this, just beautiful

 

[Maelstrom]

[QUOTE="tree, post: 235064,I decided that I was being too literal about the idea of
'do you have an inner world.' Maybe the question isn't
asking if I have imaginary sims in my head. lol[/QUOTE]

Hi Tree, why not imaginary sims? that's my imaginary inner life thing and I make no apologies for it either I consider it my auti super power... it makes us less boring than the NTs who can only count money cars and houses. To bad we cant duel with inner me's like pokymon.

 

[tree]

[QUOTE="tree, post: 235064,I decided that I was being too literal about the idea of
'do you have an inner world.' Maybe the question isn't
asking if I have imaginary sims in my head. lol

Hi Tree, why not imaginary sims? that's my imaginary inner life thing and I make no apologies for it either I consider it my auti super power... it makes us less boring than the NTs who can only count money cars and houses. To bad we cant duel with inner me's like pokymon.[/QUOTE]

I read a part of your blog.
I was surprised how similar it seemed to
some things I have written.

Why not imaginary sims?
IDK. I tried playing a game about a family,
but it just didn't work. A facebook game, I mean.
Not a 'game' in my head.
I have plenty of games & activities in my head.

 

[Beverly]

I definitely have an inner world. A place where everyone is a star in their own right. I put new people I meet in there and see what they become famous for. In that world, every possible skill and talent has celebrities that the whole world knows. I use it to keep myself from becoming a conceited elitist. If I can see each person in that world, it's easy to see them as my equal, no matter where they are in life in this world.

 

[Maelstrom]

Hi Tree, why not imaginary sims? that's my imaginary inner life thing and I make no apologies for it either I consider it my auti super power... it makes us less boring than the NTs who can only count money cars and houses. To bad we cant duel with inner me's like pokymon.

I read a part of your blog.
I was surprised how similar it seemed to
some things I have written.

Why not imaginary sims?
IDK. I tried playing a game about a family,
but it just didn't work. A facebook game, I mean.
Not a 'game' in my head.
I have plenty of games & activities in my head.[/QUOTE]

Well Tree I'm the auti visual imaging savant sort I noticed in a couple of your posts lately you seem to lean my way on that. Nice to have someone somewhat like me out there, no I haven't been following you, and I think you may be better at math than me, but I do tend to like your posts when we end up on the same thread, I do like your little avitar like I said I'm very visual. And modeling things in my head is what I do best. I'm a little confused by your blog remark my work is extremely unusual, do you know anything about disjunction fields Tree? I have never seen your work do you have some here?

 

[tree]

Maelstrom
The only visible things I have written are in threads.
As parts of games.
Like in the Say Something Random About the Above Poster.

By disjunction fields, do you mean
logic? A or B..etc?
Or something else?

If you want to make a person's name look
the way it does with their avatar,
I learned from kestrel all you have to do
is put the 'at' sign before the name.
And then it shows up like the avatar.
I asked her how to do it.

 

[Maelstrom]

[QUOTE=" tree, By disjunction fields, do you mean
logic? A or B..etc?
Or something else?

If you want to make a person's name look
the way it does with their avatar,
I learned from kestrel all you have to do
is put the 'at' sign before the name.
And then it shows up like the avatar.
I asked her how to do it.[/QUOTE]
Sorry Tree I guessed at the wrong part of our writing being similar, I am using Zero Mass Fields and natural laws of nature to fill in the gaps on description in Revelation. Disjunction Field is NASA's term for a hostile dark sub-atomic cloak around a spaceship that suspends natural newtonian laws restricting its acceleration and, speed and weight, the basic concept is if you can make your self weigh nothing you can go very fast as a rocket. I take it you were referring to the darkness in my work being like yours...as I would be compleatly shocked you guessed the other ending, as far as I know I'm the only person who ever lived who is able to see the real possibility of a pearl harbor on Zion.

 

[tree]

[QUOTE=",tree By disjunction fields, do you mean
logic? A or B..etc?
Or something else?

If you want to make a person's name look
the way it does with their avatar,
I learned from kestrel all you have to do
is put the 'at' sign before the name.
And then it shows up like the avatar.
I asked her how to do it.

Sorry tree I guessed at the wrong part of our writing being similar, I am using Zero Mass Fields and natural laws of nature to fill in the gaps on description in Revelation. Disjunction Field is NASA's term for a hostile dark sub-atomic cloak around a spaceship that suspends natural Newtonian laws restricting its acceleration and, speed and weight, the basic concept is if you can make your self weigh nothing you can go very fast as a rocket. I take it you were referring to the darkness in my work being like yours...as I would be completely shocked you guessed the other ending, as far as I know I'm the only person who ever lived who is able to see the real possibility of a pearl harbor on Zion.[/QUOTE]

Nope.
Nothing like that at all.
Just the imagery.

I see you didn't try making
the avatar style name reference.
I'll do it myself, (said the Little
Red Hen.)

 

[Maelstrom]

[QUOTE="tree,
Nope.
Nothing like that at all.
Just the imagery.

I see you didn't try making
the avatar style name reference.
I'll do it myself, (said the Little
Red Hen.)[/QUOTE]

Hi tree, I see, yes I write like I'm seeing a operatic movie in my head...because well I am seeing it in my head. Swirling darkness, wind, and fire, with overly dramatic action...I'm not into realism, I'm more into shock and awe...with some sweet friendship and love on the side.

Sorry for letting you down on the Avatar thing I'm no good at that stuff...I will try to figure it out...you are clearly very good at such things Tree. Tried a bunch of times (*tree) didn't work no (at* avatar picture) maybe only payed members can do that?

 

[tree]

[QUOTE="tree,
Nope.
Nothing like that at all.
Just the imagery.

I see you didn't try making
the avatar style name reference.
I'll do it myself, (said the Little
Red Hen.)

Hi tree, I see, yes I write like I'm seeing a operatic movie in my head...because well I am seeing it in my head. Swirling darkness, wind, and fire, with overly dramatic action...I'm not into realism, I'm more into shock and awe...with some sweet friendship and love on the side.

Sorry for letting you down on the Avatar thing I'm no good at that stuff...I will try to figure it out...you are clearly very good at such things Tree. Tried a bunch of times (*tree) didn't work no (at* avatar picture) maybe only payed members can do that?[/QUOTE]
Do you see the number 2 on the keyboard?
The 'at' sign (@) is on the same key as the number 2.
Maelstrom

No, it's free.

Yeah, I have some clerical aptitude.

 

[Maelstrom]

Hi tree, I see, yes I write like I'm seeing a operatic movie in my head...because well I am seeing it in my head. Swirling darkness, wind, and fire, with overly dramatic action...I'm not into realism, I'm more into shock and awe...with some sweet friendship and love on the side.

Sorry for letting you down on the Avatar thing I'm no good at that stuff...I will try to figure it out...you are clearly very good at such things Tree. Tried a bunch of times (*tree) didn't work no (at* avatar picture) maybe only payed members can do that?

Do you see the number 2 on the keyboard?
The 'at' sign (@) is on the same key as the number 2.
@Maelstrom

No, it's free.

Yeah, I have some clerical aptitude.[/QUOTE]
Thank you tree I'm having a brain glitch day somehow my brain converted at to at-steric I'm totally phonetic on the language stuff. And a little dyslexic...yes I can read I read books by the piles.

Thank you Tree it's very cool

 

[Maelstrom]

So tree what kind of things, stories, etcetera do you dream about in your inner universe?

 

[tree]

So tree what kind of things, stories, etcetera do you dream about in your inner universe?

I thought you'd enjoy being able
to tag people that way, since I see
that you reach toward people with
their names when saying things
to them.

I like to pass information along when I
find out how to do a thing.

I like to put words next to each other
so that no other word would fit as well.
I like to make pictures in people's heads
with words.
I like to take an idea and hold it next to
another idea to see how it fits.

 

[Maelstrom]

I thought you'd enjoy being able
to tag people that way, since I see
that you reach toward people with
their names when saying things
to them.

I like to pass information along when I
find out how to do a thing.

I like to put words next to each other
so that no other word would fit as well.
I like to make pictures in people's heads
with words.
I like to take an idea and hold it next to
another idea to see how it fits.

You are a little like me tree, do you like spin things around and match things like me, and build pictures. I am very good at free associative matching of seemingly unrelated ideas like Dr. House the TV show, I don't play mean games tho...not with nice people and loved ones. Is that sort of thing you with your idea matching...finding hidden pattern matches. I also like to build science fiction worlds using connected patterns I call layer cake, layer upon layer of connected what if this was so??? what would happen? Maelstrom

 

[Maelstrom]

Hi tree I forgot to say, yes you are right it was very perceptive of you to see I like to be warm and engaging on a personal level. It is something that took years for me to learn as auspie, I learned it as a survival thing, but I now do more because it makes me happy to make others happy. You have created a tag monster tree I will be tagging everyone.... Best wishes to you. Maelstrom

 

[tree]

Hi tree I forgot to say, yes you are right it was very perceptive of you to see I like to be warm and engaging on a personal level. It is something that took years for me to learn as auspie, I learned it as a survival thing, but I now do more because it makes me happy to make others happy. You have created a tag monster tree I will be tagging everyone.... Best wishes to you. Maelstrom

Maelstrom Have fun.