Religion, particularly Buddhism, is my current obsession/interest and is perhaps the strongest one I've had in my entire life. It started about two ago, I guess. For a period of time when I first was introduced to it, I became literally obsessed with reading books on Buddhism and Eastern philosophy (I obtained a whole collection of books on these topics in a very short period of time), and resigned myself to reading and rereading all of them several times. Since I've read each of them probably a dozen times each, I feel as though I've gathered as much information as I possibly can about the philosophy of Buddhism and now I simply attempt to do sitting meditation on a daily basis and constantly have conversations (preferably with reciprocity of ideas, but I've been known to simply write a "wall of text" in an instant message session that would last literally pages long if it were written in a word processor with little to no feedback whatsoever) with whomever will listen and partake into very in-depth topics such as what the reality we're experiencing truly is, the nature of suffering and how to go about bringing an end to it, what the experience of death is, if it's possible to 'experience' it at all, what the experience of Enlightenment entails (Enlightenment is the moment at which you have a full understanding of the inner workings of the universe, the purpose to life, and the way to end suffering, etc), and so on. Almost every aspect of Buddhism thrills me, and consumes my entire life to the point where I no longer think anything else
but religion/spirituality and the pursuit of Enlightenment/Nirvana really matters.
While I recognize that this isn't particularly healthy, I'm of the opinion that religion (and its contents, such as pursuing Enlightenment, etc) is the only thing in life that is worthwhile to pursue. I feel that there is a significant purpose to life: to do the best you can in life by making a wholehearted effort to follow the
Noble Eightfold Path, achieving an understanding of the nature of suffering (a.k.a. Enlightenment) and life and death as a result: the reasons it arises, and the means to stop and prevent it, and finally by using the knowledge you've thus obtained to benefit mankind in every way possible. I'm reminded of a quote from Narcotics Anonymous literature that I feel applies to this whole 'process of spiritual perfection':
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This sounds like a big order, and we can’t do it all at once. We didn’t become [who we currently are] in one day, so remember – easy does it.
There is one thing more than anything else that will defeat us in our [path to spiritual perfection]; this is an attitude of indifference or intolerance toward spiritual principles. Three of these that are indispensable are honesty, open-mindedness, and willingness. With these we are well on our way.
I feel like this quote, while usually directed towards those addicted, currently on in the past, to drugs, applies well to the individual who is seeking the ultimate understanding of him- or herself and the universe at large.
I won't continue on with details of my religiosity or anything of the such, because I don't want to bore those who are either not truly interested or only passively interested in Buddhism/religion. However, anyone who is truly interested and open-minded (members of other Western/Eastern religions, atheists, agnostics, whatever) who would like to inquire about Buddhism or anything I've talked about are more than welcome to either send me a private message (but please let me know in a response to this thread as I might forget to check the PMs) or ask questions on the thread itself.
If I receive no responses to this thread, I just wish everyone a good luck with developing a better understanding of God, your religion, the afterlife, or anything else related to these. I encourage all of you who are already dedicated to a particular religion and feel it is the right fit for you, to pursue it as deeply as possible until you're totally satisfied with the answers you've gotten. For those who are currently on the border, or those who are unsure, I was atheist/agnostic prior to "becoming Buddhist," and I know how horrible it feels to not truly understand why we have to die, what it's like to die, etc. So I basically encourage those who aren't satisfied with Western religions (Christianity, etc) to possibly take a look at Eastern ones, as they might "fit" you better, as less beliefs are required and it's more focused on what you can personally experience and know for certain. There is nothing at all wrong with beliefs, I just know for me personally, it was hard to swallow something I didn't truly believe.
Thanks for reading.