Now I'm back on dunno ware i stand spot, I'm really confused and stressed about always ending up in the same spot. What i mean is i am in this state of mind that i live not knowing whats wrong with me. Since i was a kid till december 2013 i grew up not knowing whats wrong with me. Why do i suffer with anxiety, why do i have meltdowns, why do i live by a routine which keeps me happy and away from the outside world, why is it impossible for me to understand peoples feelings? Theres more to it but I'm just giving some examples.
I done allot of researching on aspergers and it just answered all my questions and felt so right. Now 4 minutes ago i researched if aspergers can have learning disabilities, the answer said yes for dyslexia, ADHD ect.. But im really confused because heres my situation:
In school i found it hard to understand and learn on most subjects, i found it hard to get interested and keep the information safe in my mind. I found it hard to remember and learn. Not only did i not want to be in a class full of other kids (even though i got put into a small group which is known as learning support) but i wasnt interested in what the teacher was trying to teach us. All my school years since primary i was put into a smaller group (learning support) they was teaching me the easy things. I dunno if i made a mistake when i pretended to seem like i didn't understand to begin with then had it easy for a while. I use to be naughty which got me sent to a room for naughty kids which sometimes i would be alone in but rarely it would be full. When i was in secondary school i use to go out of school for the whole day to get me away where i can be alone. It was scary but i use to got to the leisure centre where it was safe. So my intelligence is poor and im not sure id i am dyslexic because i can spell many words and my reading is ok. Understanding the big words is a struggle and also to remember the meaning of it. I can learn better with practical things like using my hands and if i am shown something by someone i know i can do it without any problems as long as they show me exactly how to do it and give me all the information i need to know.
now I'm really scared of what your replies are going to be, please if i was wrong im so sorry i just never felt like knowing what it is and from what i researched aspie was right till the learning problems, im not smart and i struggle with alott not only social but this learning thing aswell. 8 months i spent researching aspies and its only this learning problem that i dont understand,
Thank you for all your comments and sorry if i have caused any problems