I dont want to go back to the Psyche ward id rather go to jail again, its hell and scary so taking my meds to stay stable so i dont go back. I dont want to die anymore or im locked away and restrained and forcefully sedated and there for a long long time never to get out. Im scared at the thought! So taking my meds though i hate em i never ever want to go back its scary. Im shaking at the thought, rocking back and forth, tied down to a bed in an isolation room forcefully sedated and out for hours, sometimes days to wake up tied up in the room ignored and alone for many hours and scared till a pscychyatrist finally talks to me only after many hours later, so much anxiety, im alone and sad.