I was officially diagnosed with ASD a little over a month ago. While it was not even a little surprising to me, what I’ve been experiencing is. An … overturning of what I “knew” about my reality. I used to think I could read people and situations so well, I thought it was a strength of mine. The more I reflect and see things with my new knowledge and think back, the more I see how inaccurate I was about so many things. How wrong I was about how people felt, or if people were taking advantage of me, or how I came across in situations, etc. So much is coming back, and I see it with new eyes. I understand memory cannot really be trusted, but I’m noticing it in my current day-to-day as well.
I’ve had my reality flipped before and I think it’s healthy. However, I suppose I didn’t realize just how tightly I held onto my illusions. I’ve been wrong a million times before, but this feels different, this feels like I woke up one day and I wasn’t the character I thought I was. This shift is interesting to me, and I think ultimately a good thing for my life. This has helped me have less of a stranglehold on what I think is happening and allowed me to simply experience more situations without a preconceived idea, it’s been rather freeing. Hopefully, it will continue.
While I think most of us know we’re different from an early age, did you experience seeing things with a whole new perspective after finding out you were on the ASD, or did nothing really change for you?
I’ve had my reality flipped before and I think it’s healthy. However, I suppose I didn’t realize just how tightly I held onto my illusions. I’ve been wrong a million times before, but this feels different, this feels like I woke up one day and I wasn’t the character I thought I was. This shift is interesting to me, and I think ultimately a good thing for my life. This has helped me have less of a stranglehold on what I think is happening and allowed me to simply experience more situations without a preconceived idea, it’s been rather freeing. Hopefully, it will continue.
While I think most of us know we’re different from an early age, did you experience seeing things with a whole new perspective after finding out you were on the ASD, or did nothing really change for you?