You have no idea how close you are to KNOWING something phenomenal. You just typed it out! Its all about "ENERGY." Its all around us we produce it and we consume it... BUT what we give and what we take shapes who we really are... What we dwell on in our heads is the fuel that puts out who we are.
I read this a while back and saved it... Its very informative and it sort of describes the types of people and the energies they put off... Being honest with who I am... I am in the lower middle sector called the "STRUGGLERS and CHANGERS."
http://www.accidentalcreative.com/teams/people-factor/
In what you said, your honesty is refreshing. You said the TRUTH of who you were, but you elevated and no longer need that, or can handle that... So you are growing, not shrinking or failing.