I have been reading the Loud Hands anthology. I have owned it for some time but have only recently had time to read it. Wish it were an audiobook. It has been an emotional roller coaster to read. It is very helpful for dealing with the self blame cycles but at the same time pushes me to examine and reject the past in ways that normally I prefer not to dwell on. Given that my emotions generally feel like I'm driving a car with a broken gas gauge and I never know when I'll be close to emotional exhaustion or overload it seems this is a good experience for me to have, but it often leaves me exhausted.