Family Questions & Dismisses My Sensitive Hearing..

[AuBurney Tuckerson]

No one even cares. My family thinks I only tolerate what I wanna hear, but that's not true! They compare stuff that's loud to them and belittle my sensitive hearing entirely. They don't know that I can't watch certain stuff without being tortured to tears from any high pitched noises, bass, or crackling noises. They don't know that one pair of earbuds glitches in my ear and tortures me. My TV is always on mute because of my oversensitive hearing. The only thing that protects me is music through good enough earbuds I selected. Other than that, I can't watch a simple video without some noise torturing me. It feels like my ears are being stabbed! And nobody even cares! They just think and assume I only tolerate my own noise, and I wish I could just end it!!! The worst part is that I don't even have any support. Some roleplay friends on the internet maybe, but I wouldn't go bother them everyday with my problems. It's not like I have a shoulder to cry on IRL or a friend. Think my mother hugs me when I'm down? Think again! I have to hide my feelings from her cause she won't understand. I'm just alone with no support. The only reason I'm not in the percentage of suicidal rates is cause I'm too weak to do any actual harm to myself. I couldn't even give myself a shot (like an injection for medicine or something) if I had to. Maybe in was just born to live a life of pain and suffering. That's all life's been for me, anyway. Another year, and I'm just gonna suffer through it like I do every year.

 

[BlueSky Aozora]

Hi, it must be very painful.. are you on autism spectrum, diagnosed? Do your mother and family know about your diagnose? How old are you?

Sorry for asking too many questions. Sometimes i think it's better if a third party/specialist explain to them instead of ourselves. It's kind of psychological stuffs; sometimes we accept what third party says easier, instead of what our own loved ones says, even though they say the same thing.

 

[AuBurney Tuckerson]

Hi, it must be very painful.. are you on autism spectrum, diagnosed? Do your mother and family know about your diagnose? How old are you?

Sorry for asking too many questions. Sometimes i think it's better if a third party/specialist explain to them instead of ourselves. It's kind of psychological stuffs; sometimes we accept what third party says easier, instead of what our own loved ones says, even though they say the same thing.

Yes, my mother was there when I got my papers and claims she understands, but she just uses my own noise against me at every situation. Then she makes excuses for my little brother being loud. It's like my feelings don't matter. No one even cares. I probably wouldn't even be missed or noticed if I died. But life is nothing but pain for me. I'm 20. But I don't wanna spend anymore years suffering.

 

[Rasputin]

Some parents (mine for example) tend to ignore specialists if something doesn't fit into their view of things

Some spouses (mine for example) also have this problem.

 

[Amanda Nyborg]

I’m so sorry you are going through this. The world is such a loud place! I too can handle music with my ear buds but I can’t handle a restaurant filled with ppl talking and background music and then someone talking to me. Things like clapping and even noises when ppl eat drive me mad. I wish your mom understood how anxiety inducing noises can be.

 

[AuBurney Tuckerson]

Yeah, but I'd be surprised if they turned and actually cared. Sure they get me ear buds and stuff, but it's just so I won't be "acting crazy". They complained about me being "mean" before, and now they're claiming I can't hear cause of the ear buds, but it's all the background noise torturing me when I take the out as to why I can't hear them.