Frequent meltdowns and shutdowns

[vergil96]

These two things are very likely the same problem - bacterial infection.

Except for a couple of specific types of medication there is only one cause of stomach ulcers - bacterial infection. Easily cured with a course of antibiotics. See your doctor but don't ask him, tell him.
https://www.healthdirect.gov.au/stomach-ulcers
People also have a culture of bacteria living on their skin, the same bacteria that should be living in their gut. If that culture is weakened then foreign bacteria can also start living on the skin and in the gut. Foreign bacteria forming a permanent culture on your skin will give you a strong body odour. Unfortunately this means you'll shower more often and your own bacteria won't get a chance to reestablish themselves - you keep killing them with soap.

Makes sense, I suffer from gastric issues for my whole life, it began when I was infected with some gastric bacteria in the hospital after birth and had to be given lots of antibiotics. Later I had the appendix removed and it seems to have triggered celiac disease and lifelong problems with bacterial flora in the gut. So it makes sense, maybe I need probiotics... again. I take them from time to time in a preventive fashion. Strange things happen when the gut bacteria aren't the right ones.

 

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Years before we had all those different probiotics around people used the green mold on old bread.

 

[vergil96]

For me boiled vegetables (to get non-irritating fiber) + yogurt work.

Is the mold the one with penicillin? It's a common species of mold

 

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Is the mold the one with penicillin? It's a common species of mold

Yes, it's mostly penicillin but probably a few other bugs in there as well. A natural antibiotic.

 

[vergil96]

Once we have a better sense of WHY we are different and that the psychology and psychiatry is secondary, not primary, it helps with the personal validation, as well as, opening one's mind to making those "new life blueprints".

I feel that very much, psychotherapy is in many ways ineffective for me when not taking into account that some things I do are a result of overwhelm, not a reflection of past experiences or attitiude or the need to try harder, it's just impossible.

and re-create my life in a way that fits my brain and gives me the best chance to take advantage of the things that I do well.

So it's necessary to take it step by step basically, and figure things out one by one.

to the mix of different types of cells within the brain, to the cells themselves having a different morphology, to the concentrations of different neurotransmitters, the immunological functions, etc.

You know what, they call autism wrong planet syndrome and it's shocking how much it actually is like that. I was convinced that autism stems from a specific pattern of neurotransmitters like many psychiatric conditions, but when I learned more, there is actually different anatomy, neuronal growth rates etc. at play. Even skull shape can be a bit different due to neuronal growth in earl childhood. It's shocking. But as far as I have figured out myself, it somehow is consistent with why I think I have such a bad time with emotions, but I won't get into it, because I don't think it's easy to understand, I think the fact that I remember practically everything very accurately (so be warned, I can pull out random details a decade later as if the convo took place yesterday, lol) gave roots to a specific cognitive style.

 

[elgat0verde]

I can't speak for others, but I can't focus and feel irritable if I have even 7.5 h of sleep instead of 8. On some days I need 9 or 10 hours. I need a lot of sleep and downtime before it, it takes me approximately 3 hours to get ready for sleep: shower and other hygiene activities, supper, cleaning, then watching something or reading. (I do read the internet, but only things that I'm sure won't be inflammatory) It's neccessary to calm down enough to sleep. I also find it easier to get quality sleep and fall asleep quicker if I incorporate physical activity, can be sport but can also be a half an hour walk outside - it can be useful for example to go for groceries.

Same here, I try to sleep 8 hours daily but sometimes it also feels like it's not enough. A good example is yesterday that I slept my usual 8 hours and woke up and just wanted to sleep a tid bit more. Do ND people have different sleeping schedules you think? As in: We sleep 8-9-10 hours instead of a constant 8 hours, or is it more of a general thing?

Also a trick - turn off most lights, leave just the night lamp in the bedroom and small dark lights in other rooms. You'll be surprised.

I very recently started doing this!

I had the controller charging dock right next to my bed and the light seemed to not bother me at all, one night I moved it and it worked wonders!

 

[lovely_darlingprettybaby]

Do you know how to deal with that? I go to therapy but there isn't enough time to discuss everything. How do I even address a massive problem like that? How to fix this overload? They happen even if I avoid my sensory issues that cause meltdowns.

This happens to me particularly when some evil monster lies to me and then hides things and makes a fool out of me and gaslights me and makes me doubt my realities.
Who would worship a thing that makes you a victim over your appearance, takes your beauty away from you, blames you for other peoples problems when they aren't happy and pretends they are perfect, makes narcissistic vain bitches laugh in your face when you gave them your dreams and takes yours, makes their husbands assault you and lie to you when they are supposed to be a good person, makes narcissistic jealous people who have hurt you your whole life win, tells you that horrible people are right and that you are wrong, tells you bad information and takes away the dreams that you have always had and held onto through years of pain, tells you no one is grateful for your pain or genuinely loves you and wants to see you happy
What kind of monster tells you that you cannot be yourself, have your dreams or be happy after a lifetime of suffering.
And that no one loves you
And gaslights and psychological abuses you and never let's you go and compartmentizes you and waits for you to slip up so when you do another person can laugh in your face because they are jealous and unhappy
When you enjoy being kind, somehow it is wrong to enjoy that, kind people always get hurt the worst.

 

[lovely_darlingprettybaby]

Not saying this is for everyone, but I started taking antidepressants to help with my mood instability. I never really had shutdowns, but I had rage outbursts due to mood instability. I'd suddenly become all overaware of myself and feel a monster growl inside me and might erupt at any given moment, if someone said the wrong thing to me or something. This only occurred around close loved ones. I'd suddenly become fed up easily of smiling and being chilled, and instead go all sulky and snappy and it would sometimes escalate into an outburst involving me shouting, swearing, crying and slamming doors. For the sake of my loved ones and their sanity I went on antidepressants and I haven't had an outburst since, and it's been like 9 years now. I still have emotions, you understand, and often quite intense, but it doesn't cause me to fly up at loved ones, so I feel more in control and appreciative of my surroundings. That's the difference.

Thank you, this sounds like me.
I honestly do not think rage and angry and smashing things is me if I were well.
I do not like being like this and have hated my rage and want to be calm again.
I have cptsd.
I forgot what calm me looks like but I miss her.

 

[lovely_darlingprettybaby]

Hi rodafina

I have a question and please don't take it the wrong way.

How important is sleep for ND people?

I've come to realize that when I don't sleep enough is when I have the worst depressive/angry episodes

Is there a coorelation?

Thank you

It is hard, social media and blue light does not help.
Since going away from social media I at least sleep a bit even though I still struggle with insomnia a lot.
4 to 6 hours of sleep is a least something.