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[YouCanCallMeD]

Hi. I'm D. I have autism, tourette, ADHD, OCD, dyslexia, insomnia, and more.

I have a difficult time expressing myself, cos I feel like my words and thoughts have no weight or value.

I have a difficult time taking action, cos I feel like my actions are meaningless.

I have a difficult time allowing myself to succeed, cos I felt more punished by success than rewarded.

I have a difficult time taking opportunities, cos I feel like I don't deserve them, or others deserve them more.

I have a difficult time showing my talents, cos I feel like I'm just showing off.

I have a difficult time sharing my creations, cos I feel like nobody would be interested.

I have a difficult time talking about how I feel, cos I feel like I'm just complaining, and nobody is interested anyways.

I just spent a year on wrongplanet, and that made all of the above worse. This seems like a nicer place. Here's hoping.

Thanks.

 

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[Aspychata]

Welcome. Hope you feel comfortable here. Think a lot of us go thru some insecurity in general. Were your parents supportive at all?

 

[clg114]

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[Giraffes]

Hi am welcome, all of your insecurities I can echo, BUT here i think you will find a place of difference of approach, experience and attitutudes but a welcome and a hope for you to find a place to be you as a person of value

 

[ZebraAutismo]

Hi D. What you have to say is valid. I know how you feel about your talents but try not to be afraid to flaunt it. It can be helpful at times.

 

[Nitro]

Hi D

 

[Thinx]

Hi and welcome, I hope that you enjoy it here, people are friendly and hopefully your experience of being here will be a good one. It sounds like you are up against some challenges that are well understood here by many, and will be able to give insights about how things are for you.

 

[Sarah S]

Hi there and warm wellcome to the forums

I see you also like me have a gazilion both diagnosis & Co morbids to those

 

[SusanLR]

Welcome D.
I think you will find this a friendly group that shares and tries to help each other.
Only forum I have been on and it has been very helpful.

 

[Valeria]

Hello
If you need to talk, my inbox is open

Welcome by the way

 

[YouCanCallMeD]

Thank you all for the welcome.

@Aspychata - My parents were supportive in some ways, and abusive in others. They both had / have their own problems, so I grew up dealing with them as much as they had to deal with me. As much as they do support me, they have definitely played a part in my insecurities. My mother has a tendency to gaslight people, and my dad engages in a lot of one-sided-fairness, but overall they mean well and have done quite a lot for me.

@ZebraAspie - Thank you for saying so. It's frustrating - there are a lot of things I think I'm skilled at to varying degrees - it's just that whenever I try to share them, I feel like nobody else is interested, simply because it's me it's coming from. Singing is a special thing - I love to sing, and I like to think I'm pretty good at it, but several significant people in my life screwed up my ability to sing in front of others, and now I feel like I'm just bothering others and making a scene if I sing where anyone else can hear me. I really wish I didn't feel that way cos I love making music and writing songs. But that stupid block wont let me share them...

I'm also pretty good with cars (they're my number one lifelong special interest) and have modded one pretty heavily. Fairly proud of that, too.

Maybe I'll try to share some of my creations here. I noticed at least one other car person, and many people into music.

 

[Otenba]

Welcome to the forums, D. Have fun!

 

[Alexej]

Hi. I'm D. .. This seems like a nicer place.

Welcome D
Yes I have found this to be a friendly place

Have a poke around at some of the older thread and get to know us

 

[ZebraAutismo]

Thank you all for the welcome.

@Aspychata - My parents were supportive in some ways, and abusive in others. They both had / have their own problems, so I grew up dealing with them as much as they had to deal with me. As much as they do support me, they have definitely played a part in my insecurities. My mother has a tendency to gaslight people, and my dad engages in a lot of one-sided-fairness, but overall they mean well and have done quite a lot for me.

@ZebraAspie - Thank you for saying so. It's frustrating - there are a lot of things I think I'm skilled at to varying degrees - it's just that whenever I try to share them, I feel like nobody else is interested, simply because it's me it's coming from. Singing is a special thing - I love to sing, and I like to think I'm pretty good at it, but several significant people in my life screwed up my ability to sing in front of others, and now I feel like I'm just bothering others and making a scene if I sing where anyone else can hear me. I really wish I didn't feel that way cos I love making music and writing songs. But that stupid block wont let me share them...

I'm also pretty good with cars (they're my number one lifelong special interest) and have modded one pretty heavily. Fairly proud of that, too.

Maybe I'll try to share some of my creations here. I noticed at least one other car person, and many people into music.

I’m sure people here would love to see your creations.

 

[Crossbreed]

Hello & welcome @YouCanCallMeD .

Weren't you featured on Sesame Street (at least once...)?

 

[Sarah S]

To me it sounds like youre self confidence is and have been put down to slim to non. Ive been been there belive it or not. I thoght of my self as not worth anything as most everyone (NOT my mom tho ) regarded me as an idiot who not gonna amount to anything (even have this on paper when i got my ID diagnose )

BUT low and behold i manged to reach my goal (only to later have to step down again sadly as my body and brain started to go down and shut down due to WAY to long work hoers and stress level thru the roof )

What im trying to say here is BELIVE in youre self ,STAND UP for youre self and above all BE PROUD of youre self .Neither one of us have asked to be born with our diagnosis BUT that dont mean were less worth the same respect and dignity as anyone else

As for the Music loving If you think youre good at it SING & write music . If others dont want to listen they dont have too

Youre good with Cars that HUGE (high 5 ) i love amercan older Cars (ie 40 - 70 `s) sadly i havent got one YET but if given the opertunety OH yes . (had a Chevy Impala Kingswood (estate ) 71 for a few years BUT as usual in my life it was takend away from me due to the flipping gear box broke on my first week and had to wait several years to finaly get it fixed and in that time the corrigation hit it HARD and when i finaly got a new gearbox in the new one also froze up as its been sitting idle for to long SO had no choice then to say by by to that dream as well Storry of my life everything i manage to achive is takend away from me in front of my eyes Oh well im used to it

LOVE to see youre Creation

 

[YouCanCallMeD]

@Crossbreed - While I was on TV once (local station in the 80's), it was not Sesame Street. Any resemblance by me to other people is purely coincidental.

@ZebraAspie - I'm really excited cos I'm about to get some new software and a new microphone, so I can try to make and publish songs. Till then I have tons of pictures of some of my other projects.

@Sarah S - Thank you for the kind words. My intro to cars was american muscle and pony cars, but as a teenager I discovered Japanese Tuner cars and fell in love all over again. My project car is a 90's Nissan 240SX. Small, nimble, and quick. The old Impalas have some really nice body lines. I've never seen an estate Impala, other than when it was sold as a Buick Roadmaster. Even that looked pretty slick.

 

[Sarah S]

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[USER=21472]@Sarah S - Thank you for the kind words.

" Youre very wellcome "

My intro to cars was american muscle and pony cars, but as a teenager I discovered Japanese Tuner cars and fell in love all over again. My project car is a 90's Nissan 240SX. Small, nimble, and quick.

" Sweet (high 5 ) Nothing wrong with Japaneese older Cars So you have sort of a Drifter / Fast and furios stile then ? "

The old Impalas have some really nice body lines. I've never seen an estate Impala, other than when it was sold as a Buick Roadmaster. Even that looked pretty slick.

" Heres the modell and NO this is not mien and mien was red

GOD i LOVED that car roaring V8 [/USER]

 

[YouCanCallMeD]

@Sarah S - I love Japanese car culture, and am a fan of drifting - my car kinda reflects that - but I'm a little less Fast and Furious Drifter and a little more Midnight Club / Wangan Midnight / Freeway Speedway. A car that is stable at top speed, and designed to be swift and nimble on the highway. Mad Max, the original pursuit special, is the inspiration for my car. I named her Hannya (A Japanese demon) but her nickname is The Road Shark. I've been told by friends that seeing me come up on them through traffic was like watching a shark close in for a strike.

I removed the original 2.4L inline-4 and replaced it with a modified and upgraded 2.5L inline-6 turbocharged engine, rebuilt and upgraded the entire suspension, upgraded the brakes wheels tires and hubs, installed a 1000W stereo system, racing seat and harness - and lots and lots more - all done by me. Of all the things I've built, I'm most proud of my car. I love driving, esp driving fast and tight. Someday I hope to take her on a track.

That's a sharp lookin car. I bet yours looked slick in red.