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N2k12

N2k12

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Hey everyone. This is my last hope for "haven" so to speak. My name is lee. Im a 36 year old aspie with other diagnosis'. Im lonely, depressed, and honestly, lost. I came here for advice, and to learn how to manage my "sickness". I have lost everything in my life, including my 2 daughters. They havent passed on, i had to leave them behind with their mother, because of my anger issues and inability to handle things. I am not managing well at all, i have contemplated suicide as i feel i have nothing left to live for.

Everywhere else i ask for help i either get banned, or shunted, or my posts deleted. I am so tired of feeling invalidated and just pushed aside. Does anyone know why this is? People dont even like the sound of my voice. Often told to SHHH or "shut up" or to even calm down, when i feel calm. Im really confused, upset, irritated, and at my ropes end. Sorry for venting. I need someone to talk to
 
Hi and welcome, sorry things are so tough for you. Despite this being a very tough time, I wouldn't think there's no hope of having some sort of relationship with your children, this may just take some time. Sounds like at present you need to work on how things are for you, and to feel better.

I hope you have some help and support for what you are up against? This is a friendly and supportive place, anyway, with some interesting discussions and resources, I hope that you enjoy it here.

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I have help and some support. Have a psychologist and GP. Working on getting NDIS, a disability support worker. Paperwork is half done. Thank you for your kind words and advice. And i feel you are correct. Need to work on myself and find a better mindset. Extremely difficult, feels impossible to be honest.
 
This forum has really helped me deal with a lot of thoughts about different issues. Stay here and you will become more understanding and more accepting of yourself. As far as your voice, you could try to get feedback on how you come across. This may help you in understanding what people hear.
 
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N2k12 said:
I have help and some support. Have a psychologist and GP. Working on getting NDIS, a disability support worker. Paperwork is half done. Thank you for your kind words and advice. And i feel you are correct. Need to work on myself and find a better mindset. Extremely difficult, feels impossible to be honest.
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"one step in front of the other." There's a lot of wisdom in that. Start with small tasks/changes, and try not to get overwhelmed by the big picture. And keep in mind that autistics tend to need things broken down into smaller bits than NTs do. It's amazing where life can take you if you let it! (my new motto). Maintain hope, and keep trying. (I know, easier said than done.) And keep reaching out, even when it feels futile or impossible. Also give yourself a break when you need to rest.
 
Welcome to our forum. I hope it's a safe place. We think a lot here and talk things over and work things through. I look forward to your voice and hope you find comfort here.
 
N2k12 said:
Hey everyone. This is my last hope for "haven" so to speak. My name is lee. Im a 36 year old aspie with other diagnosis'. Im lonely, depressed, and honestly, lost. I came here for advice, and to learn how to manage my "sickness". I have lost everything in my life, including my 2 daughters. They havent passed on, i had to leave them behind with their mother, because of my anger issues and inability to handle things. I am not managing well at all, i have contemplated suicide as i feel i have nothing left to live for.

Everywhere else i ask for help i either get banned, or shunted, or my posts deleted. I am so tired of feeling invalidated and just pushed aside. Does anyone know why this is? People dont even like the sound of my voice. Often told to SHHH or "shut up" or to even calm down, when i feel calm. Im really confused, upset, irritated, and at my ropes end. Sorry for venting. I need someone to talk to
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Small world. I received an email about my daughter from my ex girlfriend. She is doing well in school and got student of the week! So proud and happy! Been waiting weeks to hear how my 2 daughters have been. Little bit of light has shined through :)
 
My experience of Austism/Asperger's has been gentler than most people on here, but I've found, even by observation, that there is tons of support on here for those who struggle more
 
Sherlock77 said:
My experience of Austism/Asperger's has been gentler than most people on here, but I've found, even by observation, that there is tons of support on here for those who struggle more
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You are one of the lucky ones mate. And yea it can be so very hard. I hear you
 
N2k12 said:
Small world. I received an email about my daughter from my ex girlfriend. She is doing well in school and got student of the week! So proud and happy! Been waiting weeks to hear how my 2 daughters have been. Little bit of light has shined through :)
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Thank you everyone for your kindness, i am feeling safe here
 
Appreciate everyones kindness, when it comes to social situations and especially online, this group has been very supportive, considering i am a stranger to you guys. Thank you
 
N2k12 said:
Hey everyone. This is my last hope for "haven" so to speak. My name is lee. Im a 36 year old aspie with other diagnosis'. Im lonely, depressed, and honestly, lost. I came here for advice, and to learn how to manage my "sickness". I have lost everything in my life, including my 2 daughters. They havent passed on, i had to leave them behind with their mother, because of my anger issues and inability to handle things. I am not managing well at all, i have contemplated suicide as i feel i have nothing left to live for.

Everywhere else i ask for help i either get banned, or shunted, or my posts deleted. I am so tired of feeling invalidated and just pushed aside. Does anyone know why this is? People dont even like the sound of my voice. Often told to SHHH or "shut up" or to even calm down, when i feel calm. Im really confused, upset, irritated, and at my ropes end. Sorry for venting. I need someone to talk to
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Welcome! I hope you find the forums friendly and supportive.
 
Aspychata said:
This forum has really helped me deal with a lot of thoughts about different issues. Stay here and you will become more understanding and more accepting of yourself. As far as your voice, you could try to get feedback on how you come across. This may help you in understanding what people hear.
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Yes. How i come across is EXTREMELY difficult. My psychologist says its "mindblindness" and i do agree.
 
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