Hi new here

[Hi I'm di]

Hi Im Di and am new here. I'm undiagnosed but pretty sure I'm an aspie, my daughter also is and I believe other members of the family. Too costly to get tested. My life has been strange, scarey, crazy, unorganized and disturbing to say the least. I always end up alienating myself because of my struggles with low self esteem, trying too hard and coming off wrong and struggling to learn something new that I must adjust to too quickly. I had a high IQ as a child but struggled with mathematics, peer relations and among other issues, processing information slowly. I have a lag and background noise exacerbates it. Communications with peers was a nightmare and still is sometimes though I've learned to be pretty social over time. I also struggle with non-verbal communication. Just plain show me and I'm clueless. Show me while verbally explaining it and I learn much better. I've been made fun of my whole life due to that which I have no control over. I have finally stopped blaming myself for something that is not my fault. Regarding social relations and ques I do okay when I know people well. In the work place or other environments I seem to get along well at first but after a while I wind up somehow making people mad or annoyed with me and alienating myself. I then get paranoid as I am triggered from being severely bullied and misunderstood and considered a failure by my family. I've struggled emotionally and psychologically most of my life and seen many councelors, clergy, been to day programs and hospitalized once for fear which I've always struggled with since childhood. I now have a daughter that is an aspie but is doing okay on fluxatine for anxiety. It's been a struggle being one myself and being a parent to one. Sorry such a long introduction but wanted to introduce myself. Thanks so much. Di

 

[Rocco]

Welcome aboard
That is a well written and informative introduction, and I am glad you have joined this community. Best wishes

 

[Skylark]

Hi, I'm in the UK, also not formally diagnosed (though my GP agrees with my observation). Best wishes!

 

[ancusmitis]

Welcome to the forums

 

[Miker]

Hi Im Di and am new here. I'm undiagnosed but pretty sure I'm an aspie, my daughter also is and I believe other members of the family. Too costly to get tested. My life has been strange, scarey, crazy, unorganized and disturbing to say the least. I always end up alienating myself because of my struggles with low self esteem, trying too hard and coming off wrong and struggling to learn something new that I must adjust to too quickly. I had a high IQ as a child but struggled with mathematics, peer relations and among other issues, processing information slowly. I have a lag and background noise exacerbates it. Communications with peers was a nightmare and still is sometimes though I've learned to be pretty social over time. I also struggle with non-verbal communication. Just plain show me and I'm clueless. Show me while verbally explaining it and I learn much better. I've been made fun of my whole life due to that which I have no control over. I have finally stopped blaming myself for something that is not my fault. Regarding social relations and ques I do okay when I know people well. In the work place or other environments I seem to get along well at first but after a while I wind up somehow making people mad or annoyed with me and alienating myself. I then get paranoid as I am triggered from being severely bullied and misunderstood and considered a failure by my family. I've struggled emotionally and psychologically most of my life and seen many councelors, clergy, been to day programs and hospitalized once for fear which I've always struggled with since childhood. I now have a daughter that is an aspie but is doing okay on fluxatine for anxiety. It's been a struggle being one myself and being a parent to one. Sorry such a long introduction but wanted to introduce myself. Thanks so much. Di

Hi,
Welcome
On the bright side you have found a website where appreciation of your situation is guaranteed and useful advice available from many knowledgeable people.

 

[Elemental]

Hello Hi I'm di, welcome to Central

Brilliant 'intro...you capture the experiences accurately & eloquently

 

[watersprite]

Hi Hi I'm di.
I hope you find as I have that AC is a place that will not trigger fear.
Welcome.