Christian T
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Is this weird??
Hardly, a lot of places have their own distinct, intricate atmosphere. If anything, it's weird that the world is like that. But what does it really mean to be "weird"? Really?
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Is this weird??
Hardly, a lot of places have their own distinct, intricate atmosphere. If anything, it's weird that the world is like that. But what does it really mean to be "weird"? Really?
I often view the world as my forbidden fruit, I want to experience life..not just exist. I fear it will eventually become a missed opportunity. I'm only 25 but time seems to gain speed each year. It often looks like a land filled with opportunity, great treasures, and excitement, yet I find myself disappointed each time I venture out. I compare it to visiting an amazingly beautiful country and not having the slightest idea of the native language. No contacts to speak of or companions to rely on. The world taunts me with its riches and the society within this world safeguards it for eternity, if only they had a Rosetta Stone for someone like me (lol)
If you spend too much time choosing, all your options will disappear, so just take one before it's too late.
I can recall telling my mother that I wished I had never been born while I was still in grade school. She went off on a religious rant about not being grateful to God for the life He gave me. I am now 69 and still feel very strongly that if I had been given the choice, I would have chosen not to be born. I am an alien in a hostile environment for many reasons; largely because I have always been fat, have AS and also Prosopagnosia (lay term is faceblind), have never been in the greatest health and rarely feel comfortable even when I am alone because I have constant thoughts of previous severe social discomfort. I hope when I die I don't experience any kind of afterlife or reincarnation. No Heaven, Hell or any kind of consciousness. Please, let it be over. I do find this planet to be incredibly interesting and beautiful and wish I could experience it without any other people ever having existed here. I realize I wouldn't survive very long alone on this earth. Still, I would like to see just flora and fauna without any human influence. Since my only real awareness of Earth is for the past 69 years I guess I would like to view it during this time period and with no previous history of human presence. Just had a thought--the world as it is right now is hugely influenced by the fact that people HAVE been here for a while![]()