I am struggling with depression

[Aspychata]

So sorry you may feel that you are unlovable. But l say maybe decide you are loveable. Who could decide you aren't lovable? I cast my vote that you are truly loveable. Hate me or like me, l say it's okay to love yourself.

 

[lovely_darlingprettybaby]

@Kayla55 l worried too about my daughter. And l always worried about myself. Thanks for being so honest. We do worry about our ability to pass, and hold meaningful employment.
@Xinyta This is a great post. Thank you for your contribution. I definitely walk the negative walk. You are stressing that we need to examine our bias, then step outside of it. Very insightful. We can roll around in negativity, or we can make the conscious choice to roll in positivity.

Yes negativity can happen to anyone, everyone had free will. Some people's minds are more negative.
I get negative too but I prefer to think of the good and I like to think the best of others but I know it is often not true.
I like to think with rose colored glasses that things can be wonderful even if it takes time getting there. I am happy each day
But it is because I have experienced pain and despite it I chose to find good and joy.
How can I be denied it when my life has been very painful?
But I still get overwhelmingly negative and fearful and worried when I do not understand
I know bad exists but I like to think of good too and I often see it in life as well

 

[lovely_darlingprettybaby]

So sorry you may feel that you are unlovable. But l say maybe decide you are loveable. Who could decide you aren't lovable? I cast my vote that you are truly loveable. Hate me or like me, l say it's okay to love yourself.

I am loveable but am unable to find satisfying love yet though there are people in life that I love
But the fact is it is painful when u can't yet find it like you need it.
I want and need more and often get put in situations where I have my vulnerability played on to find it.

 

[Aspychata]

@lovely_darlingprettybaby. Would it help you to understand we all face this?

 

[Kayla55]

The new laws force psychologists to break confidence, to report harm to yourself....to break confidence in minor over drug use etc. I never felt comfy chatting to someone who gets paid, support group allows genuine human opinion.
I was told this world belongs to devil, no God does not forsake us. People don't seem to realise pain inflicted on others through their care-less attitude. There are a few of us who are not like that but prepare to meet them less often, maybe connect online with likewise people. I have felt isolated most of my life but my war is not with God and my atheist views changed when I let go of caring about unimportant people. Focus on what makes you happy, hobbies and don't waste time with shallow hollow people as they can only bring you down.

 

[AspieChris]

If you can separate God from ‘Church’…. things start to make more sense. Follow your faith. Read your bible. Turn off the television. Get off the internet. Eat something that you cooked yourself. Go outdoors. Get some exercise.

The way that this world is being twisted only amplifies your ASD. I have been (am still) where you are. Taking drugs, both prescribed and unprescribed. Just trying to not end it all. My best days are those that don’t include any of our modern convienencies. It costs nothing to turn off everything and sit in the sun.

It was once normal to watch the sun go down and go to sleep. We’re all overstimulated now. It creates depression, anxiety, etc. If you can un-stimulate yourself, maybe some of these problems you’re experiencing could go away.

 

[Ken]

You have a good perceptive and it is good to be true to our perceptions.
I do not believe in a comfy life but autistics can be weak and sensitive and struggle with trauma and abuse too, that is how I am.
I do not like being in a state of conflict. But God gives me a fight in me but sometimes I end up hurting myself a lot too and taking it out on me and often it is me who gets hurt the most.

Yes, I get hurt seems like always. My whole life has been a state of conflict except when I am able to spend time in solitude with my best friends. It should be noted however that all my best friends are not of the human species. I don't even have any real human friends.

Saying this, however does not mean I am trying to compete with who has it worse. We have very different lives, but there are parallels that we can both relate to.

 

[Wolfnox]

And I think God knows this because He never let the holy spirit touch my life

What makes you say this?