I was the same. Ugly times taking a bus.I was thinking just the other day about how good for my mental health learning to drive was. I think this was one of the things that lead to the best period of recovery I have ever had. 4 short blimmin' years.
I was considering what made me feel so great about just being able to hop in my car and go wherever I wanted, pretty much whenever I wanted.
I decided it came down to how rubbish public transport is. How I hated not being able to get a seat and when someone would sit next to me. I hated sitting near the isle or having to stand. I found this particularly distressing. Having yobs on the bus behaving like baboons, and if anyone was targeted by them, it was usually me. People blasting horrible music on their phones. Journeys taking up to an hour longer than they should, late buses, being late due to buses. Buses make me anxious and uncomfortable that's for sure.
All that cured at a stroke by getting a license and learning to drive.
If I was in your shoes I would be very disappointed too.
Having to take a bus actually pushed me into getting a motorcycle. It actually felt safer than taking a bus. I somehow managed to endure the embarrassment and anxiety of getting the certificate. It took 3 attempts and 2 training schools, but I got there. Not a full licence, and only valid for 2 years, but it was still better than the bus.
I was never bothered walking down the street, in any part of Edinburgh, sometimes even later at night. Nothing. I used to work in and around areas with a bad reputation, seemed pretty undeserved in my experience. But on a bus, every other day someone would accost me about something or other.
Barely had any incidents riding a motorcycle either.
But I do accept, this and the other issues in this thread are down to social and environmental concerns, rather than just the bus on it's own, which is just a vehicle.