I know how to waste lots of money.

[Metalhead]

So now I have a diagnosis of being Bipolar Type II. Not an excuse for this behavior, but it certainly is a reason.

It is being treated. Perhaps threads like this will one day be a part of my past. I do not want to use a diagnosis as an excuse to be a whiny person.

 

[Rodafina]

So now I have a diagnosis of being Bipolar Type II. Not an excuse for this behavior, but it certainly is a reason.

It is being treated. Perhaps threads like this will one day be a part of my past. I do not want to use a diagnosis as an excuse to be a whiny person.

Excuses are different than reasons. Now you have a reason for your difficulty in managing an ongoing cycle of highs and lows. Excuses give you an out to do nothing, but reasons give you an action plan and constructive ideas for how to live on a more even keel. Thanks for sharing. I hope this news is ultimately helpful for you.

 

[BrokenBoy]

So now I have a diagnosis of being Bipolar Type II. Not an excuse for this behavior, but it certainly is a reason.

It is being treated. Perhaps threads like this will one day be a part of my past. I do not want to use a diagnosis as an excuse to be a whiny person.

Wait!? You have bipolar!? I can't believe this!

 

[Atrapa Almas]

So now I have a diagnosis of being Bipolar Type II. Not an excuse for this behavior, but it certainly is a reason.

It is being treated. Perhaps threads like this will one day be a part of my past. I do not want to use a diagnosis as an excuse to be a whiny person.

Knowing the origin of the problem should let you to better adress it. There are probably many proven strategies for bipolar people.

I wish you the best.

 

[MildredHubble]

So now I have a diagnosis of being Bipolar Type II. Not an excuse for this behavior, but it certainly is a reason.

It is being treated. Perhaps threads like this will one day be a part of my past. I do not want to use a diagnosis as an excuse to be a whiny person.

I don't know how you are feeling about this, I'm sure as this knowledge is new, you are probably going through lots of thoughts and reflections about things in the past and the present day.

For what it's worth, I had a small suspicion you might have something similar to bipolar, certainly you were dealing with cycling moods. This is why I mentioned my experience in my previous post.

I'm glad you are getting treatment for it now. In my case I wasn't sure at the beginning of treatment what to believe. Over time though, (actually a relatively short period of time) the meds had a dramatic affect on the ups and downs. For a good long while, about 4-5 years my mood was super stable.

Having this stability helped me tease out what things were due to the illness and what things were bad habits I had developed. Those bad habits varied in significance, but often I discovered they were a product of the toxic routine I had been in with my mother most of my life. I think this is something you can probably relate to.

I hope that this is the beginning of much better times for you! I hope it will mean that soon, looking at your collection of movies and games will inspire enthusiasm and a renewed wish to engage with them again.

It can happen! It happened to me!

 

[mysterionz]

One of my relatives has bipolar… I’ve been prone to really bad spending habits and moments where I feel on top of the world only for it to all come crashing down on me.. I’ve been told I can’t have it as I’ve passed the age that I would’ve started to show signs (in my teens, I’m 19 now). Maybe there could be some overlap with adhd symptoms as well? Only a psychiatrist would know for sure.

 

[Atrapa Almas]

There are tricks to autosave, like making part of your pay go directly to a saving account you can only access certain days of the year.

Other accounts needs the signature of two people to get access to the money, for those of you who have a person you trust.

Its difficult to accept that you cant 100% trust yourself but its like getting older. There are ways to somewhat manage self saboutage.

 

[Gerontius]

Try taking out a certificate of deposit.

 

[Rodafina]

Try taking out a certificate of deposit.

Interesting idea.

What are certificates of deposit?​

A certificate of deposit (CD) is a savings account that holds a fixed amount of money for a fixed period of time, such as six months, one year, or five years, and in exchange, the issuing bank pays interest. When you cash in or redeem your CD, you receive the money you originally invested plus any interest. Certificates of deposit are considered to be one of the safest savings options. A CD bought through a federally insured bank is insured up to $250,000. The $250,000 insurance covers all accounts in your name at the same bank, not each CD or account you have at the bank.

As with all investments, there are benefits and risks associated with CDs. The disclosure statement should outline the interest rate on the CD and say if the rate is fixed or variable. It also should state when the bank pays interest on the CD, for example, monthly or semi-annually, and whether the interest payment will be made by check or by an electronic transfer of funds. The maturity date should be clearly stated, as should any penalties for the “early withdrawal” of the money in the CD. The risk with CDs is the risk that inflation will grow faster than your money, and lower your real returns over time. Certificates of Deposit (CDs) | Investor.gov

 

[Metalhead]

The honesty in this thread is exactly what I needed to hear.

I am making an effort to be better than this. Forgive me for slipping so low. I have issues, and resting in my recovery is the worst thing I can do.

 

[Gerontius]

The honesty in this thread is exactly what I needed to hear.

I am making an effort to be better than this. Forgive me for slipping so low. I have issues, and resting in my recovery is the worst thing I can do.

Everyone who loves you (all of us here) would forgive you at the drop of a hat--I think I can speak for all your friends online when I say absolutely we do.
Forgive yourself, too, and let's see you enjoy your day off tomorrow & keep building.
I saw your story here & between that added bit of inspiration, and the very surprising part where I actually had a "second wind" of executive functioning skills, I started selling off some of my collection/hoard/what-is-all-this-stuff on eBay. It looks like recovery is making you happier, & I think everyone else here would like to see you happier, and to be happier as well.
Godspeed & good luck.