I need help mentaly and physically

[LostInIsolation]

i hate my bday, the best birthday i could ener be given is death by any means, the lonliness i feel is as bad as people in hell feel from god. The lonliness i feel is worse than death itself

 

[Outsider]

Praying to Lucifer is not a good idea, to start with. The Old Scratch won't answer to your prayers because you have nothing to offer him. The legend of the Devil hunting for human souls is just a silly legend, there is no truth to it. Satan wants either your money or slave labor on your part, anything else is of no interest to him. This is how the stannic cults operate, The Church of Scientology being one of them.
I know what I'm talking talking about, I had a brief encounter with this group. After spending 4 months on staff I left it because I saw the deception behind the idea of creating a new breed of humans, Homo Novis, as they call it. They don't pray to the Devil directly, but he runs the church, as I discovered after my departure from it. They claim that they a telepathic encounter with the devil, which is not my experience,. This contact may be real or hallucinatory, it is not for me to judge. But the ones who stay for too long in the church end up seriously mentally ill. This is something that you should take into consideration before you reach the point of no return.

 

[AprilR]

i hate my bday, the best birthday i could ener be given is death by any means, the lonliness i feel is as bad as people in hell feel from god. The lonliness i feel is worse than death itself

I am so sorry. No one celebrates my birthday ever, often i want to die early as well. I have parents that i care about its the only reason i am still living