I wish I could have helped my friend more.

[Metalhead]

The fact that my friend is dead while my aunt is still alive to pump herself full of opiates every five minutes is proof there is no God.

 

[Xinyta]

God has not abandoned us. It is us, that have abandoned God.

 

[tree]

The fact that my friend is dead while my aunt is still alive to pump herself full of opiates every five minutes is proof there is no God.

I don't believe that's a logical deduction.

 

[jsilver256]

I am so sorry @Metalhead .

I cannot pretend to understand what you are going through. But when I was in high school, I had a friend online who was autistic. One night, I got into an argument with him. The next day, he died. Now, this was NOT suicide, so this is not equivalent to your situation. It was a heart defect. But every now and then, I think, I was the last person he talked to, and it wasn't a positive note.

You cannot change the past. But you can change the future, and strive to be a better person. Any of us - you, me, anyone on this forum - might die.

I truly hope you can find a way to mitigate your loneliness.