I find myself returning to the topic of this thread repeatedly and continue to find myself surprised at how difficult I'm finding it to formulate my actual question. Perhaps what I need is this process of writing it out.
I am reflecting on the point I've reached recently - the point at which I have only recently been able to acknowledge that I do not believe in the literalist conception of deity as found in the scriptures of the major monotheistic faiths.
Where I find my thoughts going next is the question as to whether this point I've reached will inevitably creep into a purely materialistic understanding of reality. Whether I'm simply enacting my own small-scale "god of the gaps" adjustment. Whether a part of me still needs the safety rails provided by an admittedly ever-retreating image of deity.
I hate not knowing. And I hate having to go through intermediate steps which feel unnecessary. If there is absolutely no deity and no sort of paranormal at all, I'd prefer to just cut to the chase and simply give up those false conceptions regardless of any comfort they may give me.
I am reflecting on the point I've reached recently - the point at which I have only recently been able to acknowledge that I do not believe in the literalist conception of deity as found in the scriptures of the major monotheistic faiths.
Where I find my thoughts going next is the question as to whether this point I've reached will inevitably creep into a purely materialistic understanding of reality. Whether I'm simply enacting my own small-scale "god of the gaps" adjustment. Whether a part of me still needs the safety rails provided by an admittedly ever-retreating image of deity.
I hate not knowing. And I hate having to go through intermediate steps which feel unnecessary. If there is absolutely no deity and no sort of paranormal at all, I'd prefer to just cut to the chase and simply give up those false conceptions regardless of any comfort they may give me.