Painful depression

[ftfipps]

I used to be a nice, bubbly person until something happened to me...
Back in July my car broke down. I never had to t that much with others. I started taking the bus and I would walk from the bus station to my destination which was about a mile. I would pass people on the street and I was completely surprised and horrified by the people. They just...sucked. They weren't cool or nice and their reactions and statements sounded like something I would say after not sleeping for two days and being stoned. Let's just say, I wasn't impressed with the people in this large metropolitan city.

This experience was...almost traumatizing to me. I couldn't believe people would be that horrible. Almost sociopaths.

Then I found out I had ASD which was just a bit of terrific...lol So that is another thing I have to deal with. Not only are people crap, but now I have to deal with the fact that my brain is abnormal.
I don't like the fact that I was cursed to live in an era where in order to get a date, oh, I'll just log on to Tinder and find a girl to go behind her boyfriend or husbands back and have a one night stand with me. Yeah, I'll just be some girls plan b...SUCKS. That is so pathetic and sad.

Honestly, my life from this point on I plan on working however I can and oneday I will do too much heroin or morphine and I just die....That is how bleak my life feels right now. I need a change. I need help. Today I slept until noon. I didn't even want to get out of bed. This happens almost every day. Somebody please give me some advice.

 

[Beguiling Orbit]

Jesus' words always comfort me when I'm feeling that low:

"Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light" (Matthew 11:28-30).​

 

[Keigan]

You are your thoughts and you need some new thoughts.

 

[Gritches]

Been there. It's a lot better now. I went from suicidal to happy in a year. If you're asking for advice, here's what I got:

Work on yourself. Write off the whole relationship thing until you've worked on yourself enough to where you don't give one crap about women; make them want YOU by becoming a superior human specimen.

By work on yourself, I mean do everything you can to improve yourself as a human specimen, one day at a time. What worked for me was "pretending" I had a life coach, and I would imagine what the life coach would tell me to do that day, or what to work on that week. I pushed my limits and learned self-discipline, basically.

Grow as a person, screw everyone else. If you like reading, "Zero Degrees of Empathy" by Simon Baron-Cohen basically explains how NTs are practical sociopaths anyhow.

If you don't like reading, I'd strongly recommend grinding through the very short book "Games People Play" by Eric Berne. It's the field manual on how NTs communicate, extremely informative, I dropped a lot of my hate for NTs when I read that book and understood.

Some people are better than others. Those are the people who take the initiative to take their own life by the proverbial horns, take control, and make their world their own. Be a superior human specimen. Anyone can do it, it's just a matter of wanting it bad enough. I did it. You can do it too.

 

[watersprite]

Your brain is working for you (itself), really well. It has sent clear, non-confusing, strong messages. It has been perceptibly taking in what's been going on and then telling you in no uncertain terms that you do not like what you're doing.

Do something different.

 

[ftfipps]

Been there. It's a lot better now. I went from suicidal to happy in a year. If you're asking for advice, here's what I got:

Work on yourself. Write off the whole relationship thing until you've worked on yourself enough to where you don't give one crap about women; make them want YOU by becoming a superior human specimen.

By work on yourself, I mean do everything you can to improve yourself as a human specimen, one day at a time. What worked for me was "pretending" I had a life coach, and I would imagine what the life coach would tell me to do that day, or what to work on that week. I pushed my limits and learned self-discipline, basically.

Grow as a person, screw everyone else. If you like reading, "Zero Degrees of Empathy" by Simon Baron-Cohen basically explains how NTs are practical sociopaths anyhow.

If you don't like reading, I'd strongly recommend grinding through the very short book "Games People Play" by Eric Berne. It's the field manual on how NTs communicate, extremely informative, I dropped a lot of my hate for NTs when I read that book and understood.

Some people are better than others. Those are the people who take the initiative to take their own life by the proverbial horns, take control, and make their world their own. Be a superior human specimen. Anyone can do it, it's just a matter of wanting it bad enough. I did it. You can do it too.

That makes me feel so much better that this type of behavior I experienced from others is just NT stuff, and there is a logical reason for it. I'm definitely checking out that Book "Zero Degrees of Empathy" in the near future.

 

[OkRad]

That does look like a good book. Scary, too. I am not sure I have autism if no empathy is a requirement! He says that autistic people may not have empathy, but they withdrawal insrtead of attack, but many people I know on Spectrum are very acutely empathectic! I am way too much. It is less now, after years of abuse. I will say that is true, b ut my default is oozing care and concern to the point of sobbing my eyes out over a suffering friend. TOo much!