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Leep525

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Hi. I am waiting to get tested for Aspergers. I have been obsessed with it for days now and I feel like I got in with asperger people. I have been diagnosed with ADD, depression, and ocd but I never feel like they get it right. My freinds always "joke" around that I have aspergers. Not until recently I have considered it and started to research it. I have never fit in and I fake it if I do. I like to walk with my head down as nuts as that sounds but I force myself to put it up. I've been called mean, rude, and unemotional my whole life. I lose freinds a lot. I hate getting close to people because then they will see the real me. I am very defensive as well. I talk a lot too. I also am obsessed with maps since I was small. I get comfort out of researching things. I love to research social policies and politics. I also enjoy reciting states in alphabetical order. I know I'm not normal. Now that I'm 31 I finally am facing it. I always feel out of pace and think a lot about stupid things to normal people. I am also very lonely and cry a lot. I don't know what's wrong with me but I like reading these aspie blogs and discussion boards bc I feel like maybe I fit in. Has anyone ever experienced what I'm going through? Or do you think I'm seriously bat **** crazy? I'd appreciate the feedback bc I can't talk to anyone about this .
 
Welcome aboard! Or shall I say welcome home? :)
I don't think you sound crazy. This is a fabulous friendly community and a great place to interact with others in the land of "misfit toys"
Hope you enjoy the site and best wishes.
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Thank you. Pictures or my paintings express more than I can write, so I post a picture for new members.
Have you taken any of the online aspire tests? There is also a chat room on this site that had a varying population.
Many of us have been misdiagnosed previously or have additional diagnoses, and ASD is not a requirement for membership, so no matter what your results, you are always welcome here.
 
I understand. I love art too. I have taken aspergers tests online and I have scored high on all of them. I spoke to an aspergers specialist today and she said I may have some traits but that doesn't mean I have it. I just feel like I do. I have a lot of the traits and thought I was crazy my whole life. When I told my mom she said she always thought that but I got along w people so she never got me tested for it. However I was on adderall my whole life bc of an ADD diagnoses. She said when I was little I was obsessed with maps and the globe and by five I knew all the seven continents in size order lol. I'm just confused as to what I have but finally got the courage to talk about it.
 
welcome Leep, I also am a solitary man. I am working on that aspect of my life and hope to have success soon.
Best wishes for you.
 
It won't take long and you will see this is the place to be. Many here, including myself, share your experience and I think you will enjoy your time here. Welcome and good luck!:)

P.S. I'm 45 and I still have maps on the walls of my bedroom.:D
 
Each has there own unique road and characteristics but what you describe pretty much describes a typical Aspie experience. The other conditions you have are called co-morbids in reference to Aspergers. In other words if you have Aspergers (or any HFA autism) you very likely will have at least some other conditions. Really you are ok. You just are different then most. But you are like those here. Hi & Welcome btw.
 
To most NT's yes you would sound "crazy" but really, lol it is them, who are the crazy ones!

Anyway, welcome to this amazing forum and no wonder you feel at home.

I am also not professionally diagnosed, but feel comfortable saying I have it now.

I love research too, but terrible with reading maps lol but perhaps that will change, as I am in the process at 45, learning to drive.

You certainly sound like you have aspergers, for what you described is very much what we all go through.

And no, I find you fascinating!
 
This also sounds like a paranoid question but it's scaring me. But scared to get diagnosed because I have two children. I haven't read good things about aspie parents and I'm scared they will think I'm not a good mom if I am diagnosed.
 
Welcome Leep!

I am fairly new here. I found my way to this forum because my daughter is in the children's psychiatric hospital being diagnosed with PDD-NOS (same level as Aspergers but with some differences) and her psychologists kept asking me if her dad has ever been examnied for autism. So I went looking, found AS likely for both hubby and son and found myself fitting my daughter's PDD-NOS. It doesn't change who we are but brings more understanding. You'll find other aspie moms in here and they will tell you there can be challenges in being a parent but keep in mind it doesn't change the least about the fact that you love your kids and will do your very best for them!
 
My fear is when I get diagnosed the Drs won't see how good of a mom I am. Yes it is challenging but I love them so much and try so hard to provide the best life for them but will doctors see this? Or will they just think all aspies are incapable of motherhood?
 
Leep525 said:
My fear is when I get diagnosed the Drs won't see how good of a mom I am. Yes it is challenging but I love them so much and try so hard to provide the best life for them but will doctors see this? Or will they just think all aspies are incapable of motherhood?
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I think your fears about medical interventions into your life after your diagnosis are unwarranted. The most significant action will be a strong suggest to see a therapist.

You sound like a good and caring person, most of us are, and a diagnosis should enable you to identify negative aspie traits and then work on remedial actions.

I was a real crappy father and regret not having been diagnosed while my children were young.
 
Hi leep,

Your story sounds very similar to mine. My suspicions that I had Aspergers started 2 years ago after working at a specilist college. Like you I completed the online tests and scores very highly. it was a very confusing and difficult time but last week I had my assessment and it was confirmed, I am an aspie. Since my diagnosis I Found aspiecentral and I've been glued since, theres a lot of useful material here and the forums have been very helpful for realizing your not alone.

Good luck with everything and I hope you find this page as useful as i have.

Mike
 
Thank you guys so much for your help. I see the specialist on Monday. I am very nervous and I hope she sees that I am a caring person and not stupid as a lot of people have see. Me in the past.
 
I was diagnosed and I know I am a great mom. I only have one child but I'm pretty good at the whole gig. But I know what you mean because when I was pregnant I was afraid my mental health file was going to cause me a lot of issues that way. But so far several years into it.. No one has ever questioned my abilities as a mom with regards to it. Of course family has there own opinion about things and ways I should be doing things different than I do. (I ignore them) But I do things my own way and so far doctors always tell me I am doing very well so.

Edit * I mean to say this stuff becuase you said you were worried about what peopel thought of your being a mom with a diagnosis*
 
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I was diagnosed and I know I am a great mom. I only have one child but I'm pretty good at the whole gig. But I know what you mean because when I was pregnant I was afraid my mental health file was going to cause me a lot of issues that way. But so far several years into it.. No one has ever questioned my abilities as a mom with regards to it. Of course family has there own opinion about things and ways I should be doing things different than I do. (I ignore them) But I do things my own way and so far doctors always tell me I am doing very well so.

Edit * I mean to say this stuff becuase you said you were worried about what peopel thought of your being a mom with a diagnosis*
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Hi! I have two kids and I will not lie it's challenging. But I believe I was raised by aspie parents and it wasn't fun. I remember not being nurtured and them not understanding when and why I was sad. But I take these experiences and use them to help me understand my kids emotions. So if my daughter is crying my natural reaction isn't to pick her up and to nurture her (she's four) my instinct is to discuss why she's crying. But I take myself back to my childhood and say ok, when I cried no one did anything but all I wanted was someone to hug me. So I pick her up and hug her and realize that she's less tense and puts her guard down and starts verbalizing the issue. It seems to work. I also have to block a lot of things like noise. So if they are yelling or tapping and playing I have to say, ok kids love to play and they aren't hurting anyone so block the tapping and carry on. Do doctors know you are autistic? Were you self diagnosed or diagnosed by a doctor? (I'm not trying to get in your business I'm just trying to get advice, sorry if the questions are invasive) I'm scared they will try to take my kids away bc I do have issues with emotions. My son is older and I explain to him sometimes I don't know why your upset. It helps me when you can be very literal and just explain it. He now does that and it helps. I'm just scared the doctors will say I'm unfit. I'm welcome to therapy and classes to help me. I really want help actually so I can be the best parent to them. I'm just scared me talking about my issues will make them not think I'm a good person.
 
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