I'm continuously asked why I still haven't found someone to settle down with by now. It doesn't bother me until people question me on it and I start analysing everything. Both my brother and sister are married and my brother and sister-in-law just had a baby, so I'm getting the same question from multiple people at the moment. I did want to get married, share a house with someone, do all the stereotypical romantic stuff when I was younger, but the few men I've met over the years who I'd be compatible with were/are already taken and I'm not immoral enough to say anything to them. And dating sites are a complete nightmare unless you just want any random person to hook up with in the short term. So it does feel like I'll be single forever, and a lot of the goals I had require a partner so I've put most of my life on hold indefinitely. I don't normally think about it, but getting the third degree at every family gathering is hard work. I've thought about moving back abroad several times and just starting a new life away from everything, but I'd miss out on seeing my nephew.
I can relate.
Barring my Grandmothers (whose husbands have both sadly passed away), almost all of my family are in relationships of some kind.
My mum and dad are split up but both in relationships with other people, my two eldest sisters are both in relationships and have kids each, my third elder sister is in a relationship but without kids and my younger brother is engaged to be married in a few years from now (of which I'm to be the best man at his wedding).
As a result, I've had a few people come to me and express their opinions/concerns that I'm 26 years old and have yet to even go on a single date - mainly my Mum and Dad.
In response, I've replied that the friends I make online are fine as I can talk to you guys at a time I feel comfortable with and I can switch off and do my own thing when I want.
On top of this, if I ever did find a 'friend' to go out with, I'd stress about arranging times to meet, travel arrangements and getting smartened up, etc.
Furthermore, I'd be forcing myself to try committing to small-talk and making eye contact with the people I meet, which will be even more stressful if me and the person I'm talking too share few of the same interests. Online, I've got none of those worries.
In regards to getting a girlfriend and eventually starting a family, I'm not bothered by it. I'm an Asexual - with myself finding the process of sex to be repulsive from my own point of view (trying to get through sex education lessons in school wasn't a fun experience, nor was being called 'gay' by my fellow pupils due to the fact I wasn't interested in chasing after girls), and as I've stated I've simply never had an interest in starting life with someone else.
On top of this, I've learned from certain experiences that I would not be a good father; I've had times with my nieces and nephews where I've gotten extremely stressed in a few minutes just because they're crying and wouldn't stop, with me nearly having a meltdown because of their high-pitched screams. Another time, me and my mother were trying to put them to bed but they were deliberately having a 'screaming match' of some kind (one would scream, the other would then scream back and this would continue for a long time).
After two attempts of my mum trying to quieten them and failing, I lost my temper - stormed upstairs and literally screamed at them "
RIGHT, THAT IS ENOUGH! IF YOU DON'T GET IN BED AND QUIETEN DOWN RIGHT NOW, YOU'RE GOING TO GET A SMACK ON THE BACKSIDE!"
While I had no intention of doing this (I'm fully aware of people's opinions regarding hitting children) and the kids actually did quieten down for about 10 minutes, I was scared with not only how I was repeating my Dad's words from my childhood (he did hit me on my hand or backside as punishment when I was a child) and how quickly I lost it when I became stressed; it was this that made me realize that becoming a parent was definitely
not a good idea for me.
Nowadays I don't lose sleep over it; after all, not every adult is parent material.
As far as I'm concerned, I'm an Uncle to two nieces and two nephews who I don't see often but still do see every now and then and I do love them all dearly; that's good enough for me.
If I do start getting stressed, I can still head out for a few minutes to relax for a bit. Thankfully, this isn't as often now as my nieces and nephews are older now, better at communicating and can be a lot of fun to be around.