I used to be mortally shy; it was no fun! I was crippled by social anxiety for years, getting worse and worse. For a while I took an antidepressant that changed all that and for the first time in my life I felt NT but in a good way. I then got mortally shy again, because I went off the pills and then tried to go back on them but they didn't work anymore. Now I'm getting to the "I don't care anymore; I'll just do what I want" phase again. People like me better that way too so I make friends.