I, too, am trying to remain positive. I really am. But Yung and Sonn, I feel more like you two every day. After my accident, I have no hope. Every single thing I worked so hard for against the autism is gone.
I agree, only we have control over ourselves, etc., but it time, we lost that control when Life throws at us more than the skills with which we were born can handle.
So now I am back to where I was at 14. I fought so hard, but there is no getting around this this time. It took 35 years of daily struggle to get to where I was even before my accident.
For me it was an accident, for someone else, a health problem, the death of a caretaker or sibling or loss of housing........it can be anything.
Of course, this on top of all the sensory issues, the confusion, the lack of friends, family, a wasted INTELLIGENT life.....if only I had been really low functioning.
I dare to post this link, which scares me and perhaps explains why a LOT of us feel this way...........HFA suicides- ten times more likely than general population and women more than men. This was the follow up study to suicidal thoughts. These were completed.
Large Swedish study ties autism to early death | Spectrum