Hi, there! I know this is out of the blue, but I want to ask this because I'm feeling very down about myself and I desperately need some input for those that are out on the field.
I'm a 30 year old male living in Tennessee. I got my degree on December 31, 2017 with a GPA of 3.94. I was so proud of myself. I felt like that degree was my ticket to independence, proof that I had "made it" and ready to face the world.
Then... I went through many entry-level positions... All have turned me down. I tried going for internship, but I already graduated and it was too late. Then, I decided to look for other jobs. I got a security guard job in Nashville, but the drive to Nashville and back took an hour, and the job consisted of sitting still and looking at a camera, not getting up without permission. I felt so overwhelmed by the 10 hour shift and 2 hours of driving that I quit, and quit crying my eyes out.
At the end of the year, I have a part-time job delivering food. It's not glamorous, but it's helping me get used to working. I'm still wondering how I'm going to get to a computer or software development position with no experience but food delivery under my belt, though. I'm so scared, and I can't commit too much into a job or I lose my SSI or MedicAid. I don't know what to do. I do like being productive, but I also want my me time to decompress and make video games on my spare time... I don't know what to do and it's making me cry so much...
Please, please tell me. What was your first step into a job like? How did you transition to it? Am I going to be ok? What should I do?