cory
Well-Known Member
I’m overloaded. I spent the last two days in the hospital with my grandfather and grandmother. I’m good in these situations because I keep a clear head and have formal and self education in medical fields. After going through these situations though I am completely drained. When I came home yesterday I immediately put myself into sensory deprivation. My grandfather finally had someone to give him a hand; he’s developed a sleep disorder over the last month. Luckily we have psychiatrist in the family so my cousin is on that now. My grandmother has been hospitalized for the last week with a sort of divergent mental state. My (psychiatrist) cousin said “agitated hallucinations” but that was not exactly what I saw. I saw on one end discomfort and severe short term memory problems. On the other end compete disconnection from reality accompanied by or caused by mood swings. She was terribly abusive towards my grandfather during the mood swings, and when he defended himself everything got worse. They fed off each other in a negative way like they were in a positive feedback loop. I’ll always have the memory of her threatening to commit suicide during that. When I left yesterday afternoon my grandmother was in a good mental state so that is reassuring. Ever since my father died those two have been my parental figures. They were also (almost) the only people who helped me though my difficult years. I’ve been though this enough times to know that I can help in ways no one else can, but that I have to look out for my own health at the same time. One coping mechanism is catharsis; which is what happens when you talk about it.
