Tired of getting ripped apart verbally

[Markness]

These kind of messages are not directed at you in a personal way. I think you have misunderstood that point. I say that with friendliness in my intent! I hold nothing but affection for you.

Communication on the internet can be so very tricky. Printed messages do not carry the friendly tone of voice or feel very "warm". That is too bad!

Personally, I want you to feel better and I hope you do.

Thank you for being kind to me!

 

[risk]

"Some people even think it’s acceptable to call me a misogynist and a potential serial killer."
I'll be quite blunt on everything I can read you are a soft target. Using terms such as misogynist and racist but more specifically misogynist are designed as instruments of control. They are designed to to prohibit empirical analysis and maintain a common narrative.

They are designed to enforce and uphold bigoted conspiracy theories, that fail to withstand basic analysis. Such as the gender wage gap, patriarchy theory and many other profoundly bigoted world views. I've been called some form of misogynist for decades and rest assured. It is nothing more than the usage of language for the sake subornation and control. The same thing almost always applies with number of insults, race traitor, racist, white devil, jewish shill. It is all a form of control its not a legitimate criticism on values of subjects to genuine contention.

That being said however based on your age and the subject matter. I have a sneaking feeling I can kind understand where this is coming from. But I will be quite blunt, don't chase failure and don't follow cultural norms uncritically. Romantic love is a lie, genuine expression is not considered socially acceptable and by in large. I would consider taking the online environment less seriously. I've been banned from all manner of discords and had a lot of fun doing it. But as for real life interactions, consider a policy of doing onto others as you would have done onto you. Throw on top of that a little background research into culture.

 

[Gerald Wilgus]

How was I supposed to know in the first place, though? I was told constantly “You don’t live in Africa!” as well as “Let go and let God!” I was given extreme messages, nothing in the middle ground and wasn’t allowed to learn past certain boundaries.

But I see you learning now. To understand that you are the agent of your happiness even as your mind, like some of us, fights so hard to assert the negative. I have seen you grow here.

 

[Gerald Wilgus]

What is that supposed to mean?

As @Suzette has said in last post. It's very difficult to get tone across on text & as a result, things intended to be helpful/ nice do not come out that way. Try not to take things too personally (I know, way easier said than done). Just the way you are wired, we are wired.
Get away from things for a bit, e.g. when the work break starts over this December holidays, I'm taking a week off. With taking a week off, I mean that I'm going "rustic" camping with just the basics and absolutely no internet, no technology, just open space and fresh air to breath and try to unwind.
The unwind part has always been a bit of trouble, but use it to meditate and work out all that stress of people on the internet and everyday life.

Staying home, but today plan to take out my frustration on an idler pulley on the snowblower that is failing me again. Then, I'm getting rid of it for a unit that has direct drive through a gearbox.

 

[PinkPhilodendron]

I never thought that might be a Side effect of ASD all those times I turned complete groups of people against me... I believe it has got something to do with not yielding to the group-opinion, which people with ASD are used to Not doing as they do not fit anyway and therefore do it more often. It's worse online and one of the reasons I am not on social media. I think the "masses"(le bon) are more pure online due to the encouragement of opinion-bubbles.
It's so nice to not feel alone with this...