atrocityexhibition
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I have a fear of dying. I'm death obsessed. I am afraid of dying before I can perfect myself and be totally happy with who I am.
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I guess we're opposites then. You fear dying and I fear living.I have a fear of dying. I'm death obsessed. I am afraid of dying before I can perfect myself and be totally happy with who I am.
You mean, not letting go of things? I don't know, I only recently put the picture together and figured out that I am an Aspie (official or not) and I thought that not being able to get over things is one of my main glitches. I practice letting go by reading Pema Chodron and trying to meditate and do yoga. It helps a bit with the present, but not really with the past. I still remember the "sore" past conversations and relationships with horror, even though they were not a big deal, really.Yep. And going back to the same conversations over the years.
Like they play back in some kind of loop where something unknown trips the memory. That really annoys me. Is letting go of such things an Aspie trait? I fear just the idea of such memories coming back to haunt me at times. It's a useless process to me.
Yeah, I guess a fear of aging and getting ill is almost like a fear of living when you think about it. Because if you died young, you'd never have those problems ha.
I'm afraid of medicines! I obsess over the side effects. I have had some allergic reactions to some meds when I was younger and now I can't even take a Tylenol with out thinking what harm it could be doing.
Just curious, do you take antibiotics at all? I was able to take erythromycin but last year it started to bother me. My husband thinks it was just me being me but it I don't know. Now I fret constantly about getting sick and needing antibioticsMy mother was very much like that. It did make it challenging at times in being her caregiver. She'd obediently pay for whatever prescription the doctor would prescribe and then be hesitant to take it. Thing is, she DID have a number of very real issues when it came to side effects. It's a tough thing to deal with, especially if you do have a history of real problems with certain medications.
And antibiotics can be lethal for me.
Just curious, do you take antibiotics at all? I was able to take erythromycin but last year it started to bother me. My husband thinks it was just me being me but it I don't know. Now I fret constantly about getting sick and needing antibiotics
Sounds like me! Last year I bought some oil of oregano after hearing it's a natural antibiotic. But quite honestly I'm still a little freaked about it. It can be exhausting sometimes just worrying about this crap. Wish I could just turn it off like some suggest.Quite honestly they terrify me. The only one I will even consider for internal consumption is Ceclor. Topical antibiotics don't seem to be an issue for me. But give me penicillin, and give me death. Found that out the hard way.
Going through drug therapy many years ago for social anxiety was a nightmare as well. Many either didn't work or made me ill. Sure, it's made me somewhat "gunshy" about meds. These days I take only OTC stuff.
I used to do the same, my parents had to grind up meds and put them in honey or jam in a teaspoon if I needed anything. I got over it eventually, but it took a long time and I still get a bit nervy if I have to take pills.I can't take pills because I fear I'll choke on them. I tend to chew on headache pills before gulping down with water.