That is wonderful, Jordan. Your post resonates with me.
I agree with much of what you said. I am also a 'gifted' and have done considerable research on the subject in an effort to understand myself and how I was different from others. And of course, that also led to my investigation and eventual diagnosis on the spectrum. I have also wanted to use the information I've found to help others, because I know very much how difficult it can be when you have these qualities but nobody around you understands or has the information to help you fulfil your potential. I didn't even understand myself (I didn't have the information I needed) and I had much existential depression. Information, answers helped me understand and obtain some inner peace and at least a humble sense of purpose.
As I've mentioned, I'm older and grew up in a very sheltered way, we lived on a farm property in a small town that didn't know what to do with me. I had many problems because my needs weren't met or even really identified, and I didn't have the most stable home life. They tested me and knew that I had elevated intellectual abilities and potential; however, they didn't realize that many challenges come along with this. It was thought that everything came easy to people with high intelligence, and the success was a path that just magically opened up for us, and any lack of it was attributed to laziness or other character failings. We have much better and more comprehensive information out there now, thankfully. But there is still a lot of misconception amongst people who haven't specifically looked into it.
I also learned to read on my own, like you at a very young age, and have the other qualities that are associated with giftedness including things like entelechy, high sensitivity, asynchronous development (sounds familiar, doesn't it?). I am officially designated '2E' which means twice exceptional- the definition of which is a gifted person who also has other challenges like learning disabilities, or developmental disorders, or other challenges that impede or affect the process of learning. In my research, it looks like the spectrum and giftedness have a lot in common with many qualities that mutually present within each definition. Just call me Captain Obvious, I probably haven't said anything that wasn't already known in this post.
I didn't share a number but I try and forget I have one. I've had a lot of negative attention when I've been honest about my um, status. I hope that's ok. I genuinely am posting in this thread in case I have information that might help someone. If my posts are inappropriate for this thread, I apologise and would delete this or move it to a more appropriate thread. I still have a case of 'new-itis' here so I'm trying not to make work for the mods but I am so anxious to participate on subjects that I have a passionate interest.
(thinking in terms of thread derailing, I've seen it in some others but I'm unsure if it's undesired and I kind of derailed a little)