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Misery

Misery

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  • Misery
    Well it's been an interesting trip here. I finally did the talk with my father, and now my stepmother and brother know as well. Still kinda reeling from the extreme anxiety high I'd gotten myself into though. I get myself so darned worked up sometimes, often over nothing at all. But hey, good thing overall.
    1ForAll
    1ForAll
    Wow, congrats for telling them and for it going ok! I hope this will allow you to be yourself more around them and reduce all that stress you had inside about that.
    Misery
    I did it! Finally! Also pro tip, don’t drink all of the caffeine immediately before doing something really difficult like that. I am so overloaded right now. But I got through without clawing my arm.
    Misery
    Leaving for a trip tomorrow, up north. And I decided that once we get up there, well, it's time to finally have the talk. I've put myself through enough pain... after all these years it's time to break out of this cycle. There's so much to tell them... Nervous though, very nervous. Gonna do it anyway.
    Misery
    Whoever invented micro-USB cables needs to be dragged out into the street and covered in like, manure or something. In front of everyone. And then they get fined 2 bazillion dollars for being useless.
    tkcartoonist
    tkcartoonist
    There's a reason they've been mostly superseded by USB-C.
    kriss72
    kriss72
    I think it's one of these cases where they really tried their best... had the right intentions... but might have forgotten to test it in the wild :)
    Misery
    Ya know, hypochondria is really frustrating sometimes. Blob of mucus in my throat? Clearly I caught Death Disease Syndrome. It definitely cant be my omni-present allergies. Nope. Bah. Anxiety of any sort just sucks.
    M
    Misty Avich
    I blame Google. Type anything in and it diagnoses you with either cancer or diabetes.
    Judge
    Judge
    True dat. Reminds me of my mother who kept the "Physician's Desk Reference" at no more than an arm's length in her last years. It caused more harm than good for her. But nowadays to think of our access to the Internet, there's no telling what information we find that discourages us in all sorts of ways relative to illnesses and treatment.
    Metalhead
    Metalhead
    WebMD told me that the little ache I feel in my back is probably cancer. The Internet is not a friendly place for those of us with medical anxiety. Sorry to hear about it.
    Misery

    If you could do with a dose of cuteness, here's some. Youtube just started throwing unexpected animal videos at me. Stuff other than cat videos, I mean.
    Misery
    I need to like, hire someone to just sit near me all the time, and any time I lean forward in my chair into an awkward position, they just hit me with a shoe until I stop doing it. It'd save me a lot of neck and back pain.
    tree
    tree
    I have to tell myself that *I'm just going to sit here and do this real quick* is not a valid idea.
    Body has to be parallel to desk, not just perching in a twisted at the waist way....
    Forest Cat
    Forest Cat
    Yeah hunching in a chair is just the worst for the neck and back. And if you are leaning on a desk with your arms, pushing your shoulders up and then moving your head/neck, that is the number one fastest way to get neck pain.
    S
    Slime_Punk
    I actually had some really bad medical stuff going on once, but since I thought it was my back it essentially trained me to sit back in chairs and stop turning myself into a pretzel on a daily basis. Now that that is thankfully over, the habit somehow stayed!
    Misery
    So, uh... my stepmother was telling me about how the card thing was going at the store (it's going well) as she'd gone over to have a look. Apparently, someone asked "oh, did you make these?" (the nameplate was missing) and she says "no, I'm the stepmother of the card girl!" I dont think she caught what she'd just said, I didnt respond. This, uh... this isnt going to be a freaking surprise to anyone, is it...
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    Misery
    Misery
    @1ForAll Aye, that's probably true. Though really somebody could at least briefly ACT surprised. Not a single person I've told has shown even a bit of surprise so far. Was my mask like completely defective or something? It occurs to me that I probably aint hiding certain autism traits as well as I'd thought either.
    V
    VictorR
    Sounds like they're ready whenever you are :)
    1ForAll
    1ForAll
    Some things we may be able to mask a little on occasion, like toning down any certain feeling or emotion and movements, but once we are totally relaxed or forgetting to mask we may be unaware we are reverting back to our natural selves in ways. NTs can often pick up on the smallest of details for nonverbal cues & any even rare trait or action we do that goes against stereotype may cause them to think.
    Misery

    For anyone who could use a good laugh. I watched this like 20 times and it doesnt stop being funny.
    kriss72
    kriss72
    Funny and relatable :) Cat owner here :) - I have seen one of our cats hanging from the ceiling lamp
    Misery
    "How in the world is the battery on this new phone of mine dead after I'd just charged it yesterday?" *checks phone after recharge* "ah, I see. It's the 5 straight hours of exciting video footage of the ceiling tiles that did it"
    Misery
    So, I messed up my arm again. That scratching/raking thing I do, I cant seem to stop once I get into an agitated mental state. A bit nasty looking, hopefully I wont end up with more scars again. Negative stims can be very frustrating, eh?
    Rodafina
    Rodafina
    Yes. Very frustrating. :rage:
    For me it's legs, not arms.
    So frustrating my brain starts to swirl.

    Poor brain.
    Poor arms.
    Poor legs.
    Casualties of anxiety.
    Misery
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    So here's today's digital art creation, based on an idea from my father. Both the background and the hearts are made of the same stuff, it's all particles and fields. And then some Photoshop... if you look at the hearts (which are all the same heart) real close, you can see where both halves have been "stitched" together. That was the most annoying part.
    V
    VictorR
    I really wanted to give you a "winner" but I just had to give a "heart" to this. Thank you for sharing!
    S
    Slime_Punk
    Honestly I don't think anybody would be able to tell. Looks great!
    Misery
    I'll be glad when this month is over. I swear half of it is just feeling bad/guilty about avoiding family parties/events. Enormous extended family, so there's a lot of that.
    Misery
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    I swear it does this on purpose.
    MildredHubble
    MildredHubble
    o_O Just barely able to relate! But trust me! I feel your pain! :oops:
    Rodafina
    Rodafina
    Misery, I'm so happy your hands are feeling better and you can do your puzzles again (even when they are frustrating).
    Forest Cat
    Forest Cat
    I used to take the stickers off those things and move them around, so when people tried to solve it, it was impossible to solve . :D A little mean of me, maybe, but also funny to watch.
    Misery
    Playing through Final Fantasy Legend on the Gameboy (emulating through Launchbox & Retroarch). I had it as a kid, never got all the way through it. It's from that really archaic/obtuse era of RPGs that did things like not telling you item stats, or what anything at all did. And then there's the monsters. "Meat Transformations" is an odd name for an FAQ guide.
    Misery
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    Getting back to this is great so far. I did the three on the left today... the traditional 3x3 is still as easy as it ever was despite me being rusty. The weird thing on the far left was more confusing than expected. The others are some that I intend on tackling next. The one with the gears is the easiest of them. But really none of these are TOO hard.
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    FireLizard
    FireLizard
    Awesome hobby!
    jellyfish
    jellyfish
    I have Valk 3x3 and a v cube 7
    Misery
    Misery
    Yeah, I've got a couple of V Cubes myself, they're generally pretty nice. I dont think I have a better 7x7 specifically though than the one in the photo (and that one isnt very good)... er... maybe. Everything is so disorganized, I have a lot to sift through.
    Misery
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    Twisty puzzles! One of my hobbies, but one I havent been able to do in a long time due to physical issues. But after a lot of PT, and getting my arm brace, that problem has been gone for awhile now. So I can FINALLY get back to doing these. I'm currently super excited about this. And yes, I have A LOT of these. They get increasingly ridiculous.
    MildredHubble
    MildredHubble
    I have one of the KwikCubes (I think they are called) I had every intention of learning the algorithms and solving it but i haven't yet lol! My arms get fatigued so easily so I don't have much of a fun time with it. I hope you can enjoy solving them without any pain or discomfort :-)
    Misery
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    My birthday gift from my father & stepmother. I use brush pens a lot, though the ones I already had are marker types, very specific in what type of paper they're meant for (marker paper, duh). These new ones are watercolor, so they'll work on the infinite pile of watercolor paper I have, along with the weird watercolor ink vials.
    MildredHubble
    MildredHubble
    Such nice gifts! :)
    Misery
    Misery
    Yeah, it's high quality stuff. I had gotten a sample set of 6 in my monthly art mystery box thing (comes in the mail, it's a subscription lootbox service thing for art) and tried them out, and they were very good. So they went and got me a full set!
    MildredHubble
    MildredHubble
    They look great! I'm sure that I've seen them used by artists on YouTube. They have an ink in them that doesn't saturate the paper so it doesn't get chewed up so you get nice crisp lines etc :-) Will be cool to see what you draw with them! :-)
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